WOW.
I wrote my post title first today (I don't normally do that--with anything. College papers, OP's or anything else that needs a title. I always feel like it pigeonholes my writing). This blog, though, is different than most things I write, and as such, it deserves its own moment of "newness." This is the last blog of the year--and the last blog you will ever do as an AP Langer. While most of you are now doing that fist-pump thing in the air that you do when you're thrilled about something, I am sort of trying to post through a watery screen of unshed tears at this prospect.
My first year, the end of the year was tough--a bunch of kids that were different than any I had known at Central, yet somehow I loved them even more--it was tough to let them go. The next year was my first year taking over AP Lang, and man, that was a tough one too. And now, this year, wow. It may be the toughest one yet. I feel as though we have been through one of the most arduous journeys together, and when I look back at the twists and turns of the road we traveled I am humbled and awed by the experience.
I will save most of my internal musings about this for my final OP (and just get on with your task for this, our final blog together as an AP Lang family.
This week, my pumpkins, I would like you to use your voice and leave your mark here, on this page. You walked into 204 10 months ago not knowing what to expect or what you should think. You will leave with--well, I guess that is the question of the hour. What will you leave with--what have you learned, what have you experienced? What was your favorite day, your favorite lesson, your finest moment that you can recall? Are you different now then you were then? Better? Worse? Indifferent? What did your junior year do for you? What are your hopes for your senior year? Is there anything you want to say to your friends? Yourself? You can say whatever you want--just, please don't end your post with saying "goodbye." Because, it's not really "Goodbye"--it's more like, "See you later."
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ReplyDeleteI just wanted to comment first...just like the beginning of the year. My post will be up soon though!
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ReplyDeleteI walked in on Oakcrest with the most pessimistic, disgusting, and judging attitude I ever carried in the beginning of December. Without a doubt this is very different then my old school, and the majority of AP students here are more isolated then there. I admit in my mind I criticized most people I met from Bunje to Simon, in my mind I tore apart each person. I don't justify nor condemn it because it helped me learn a lot.
ReplyDeleteOne of the first people I judged was this thing ( she thinks she is superior to be called human) called Paola. She had come up to me and said in the most awkward way to start a conversation, "You're Egyptian, aren't you? I could tell by your eyes..." this while making a hand motion shaping around her eyes. First thoughts were "Oh Allah, make this year quick and painless." Worse was before I got to really know her special sarcastic ways, Paola had a funny way of joking that almost provoked me to punch her in the face a couple times. :) Good thing we got to know each other and grew closer. At my lowest times she made me realize it's not always about the people that you knew the longest, but the people that are currently beside you.
Another person I judged was Deanna. I thought she was arrogant, yet something about her always drew my attention to her. Every time I read her blogs or papers. Something was just not letting me have peace, and I discovered that Deanna and I are very much alike. We just have different roads approaching situations. It's the same goal but we balance aggressive and peaceful actions like MLK Jr. and Malcolm X. The more I listened to her, the more I can excitingly yell, "Oh My God, Me too!" She's just far more talented in expressing herself. It's amazing how my view of her changed completely and I can see a friendship flourishing (: That was pretty corny but from my heart <3
The list goes on, and some are pretty funny like when Kristie welcomed me to America, even though I was born in Atlantic City. I really thought I was going to snap! The thing is that I thank God, that though at hard times my "ugly" side came out, I still gave people chances. Otherwise I would be miserable and running away because of a couple of first impressions.
My favorite day can not be named, because the 6 months I've been here we have had so many laughs and serious deep talks that I cherish. The days that we sat around in circles or just sat to converse on a topic that revealed other sides and views were my favorite. I believe that through "living" ad observing life you can learn far more important things then the textbooks and rules can teach. In 204 we literally lived outside of this world and attempted to enter each other's minds. Those favorite days would also be my favorite lessons. This transition is a lesson to me about different people, change, and how the past is sometimes bittersweet because you realize who the real people that cared and the ones that simply used you for the time being. This is SOOOOO difficult to pick a finest moment! I have so many. I love the second Declamations because my first was such a massacre and I had a panic attack. Even though Roosa tried to cheer me up yelling "Peace to the Middle East!" My second declamation was so much more confident and realized that I was successful because I had trusted the class more. Another time was my last OP, when not only was that the stupidest events of my life that I will laugh on for the rest of my life, I think the class had a good laugh too. Some moments are just unforgettable, and I think I can tell my kids that a Kaitlin in my class accused me of wearing her shirt as a scarf or when Kristie caught me in creep mode... There are just so many... I don't want this blog to be like a hundred pages, my blogs are already freakishly long.
ReplyDeleteHow am I different? Well though I learned so much more about the English Language and my passion of conversing, I don't know if I went back in time I would change the fact to going to Oakcrest or not. It's weird, I lost many friends moving here, and I realized many aren't worth it if they don't want to try to stay friends. It still hurts to think that there was a chance that I would be graduating with my teammates and friends from 2nd grade. It's odd because I never fit in my entire life and I was always made fun of but back in AC they were used to me, and to start all over Junior year SUCKED. The 6 months in Oakcrest were bittersweet. I loved the new friends I made but with everything I gained I lost twice as much. Deep down I know that in the future when I speak more articulate and look back I know I will have a whole lot more appreciation for Oakcrest and I think that's a start. It's not indifferent because it did effect me, but in the better and worse kind of way.
My junior year didn't do what I expected it to do. I thought this year I would know exactly what I'd be majoring in. I thought I would have my ultimate talent, I haven't. I did grow as a person, I matured and became even more aware. I guess for Senior year I was hoping that I would discover what I'm meant to do or my talent. Senior year will not be what I had dreamed of because it will be with people I only knew a half a year, and though they might be great people. I can never tell them remember in the 3rd grade when I... It's okay I plan to make the best of it even though the whole budget drama was also dropped on our heads.
There is no such thing as Goodbyes, if your path crossed mine then I'm forever effected and it's almost like the butterfly effect. Nothing ever ends, or dies. It just takes a different form, and becomes a part of you that you carry for the rest of your life. <3 <3 <3 This is soo sad :'( I'm going to miss writing freakishly long blogs...
Girl, I did not mean it like that! Jerk, :(
ReplyDeletePlease, if you begin reading this post, read it until the end. Otherwise, you will have a very bad opinion of me.
ReplyDeleteThe start of this year was different. I knew this was the most important year of my high school career and I was scared. I had heard talk of the stuff that went on during forty-five minutes in room 204 and I was terrified. I had heard how hard the course was and how much work you had to do in order to pass the class in the end. I heard that the teacher was mean and unrealistic. I heard she either liked you or she did not. If she did not, you were doomed.
After the first couple of months, I had lumped myself among the people whom Bunje did not like and I almost gave up during the second marking period. My vocabulary grades dropped and my papers lost all sense of purpose. I felt like my body was doing the right motions but there was no purpose behind those motions since I was just going to fail anyway. While I sort of blamed Bunje for not liking me, I think I just really saw how much of a bad writer I truly was and lost hope of ever getting better. Not to mention, I think I was a bit jealous that she was so beautiful and she could not see it.
I think back now and I am sorry for blaming her for my suckiness. It was not until after the AP exam, honestly, that I saw her true intentions and began to see that she was only trying to make us all better. I had never believed that I would grow close to my 9/10 class either. However, not only do I completely love Bunje but I love my classmates as well. It was in room 204 that I was first able to discuss the problems that I dealt with on an everyday basis. I felt happier because I had a place where no one judged me.
Like I said in my OP, I have learned so much from Bunje. I learned that I should do what I want because it will make me happy, not because it will make those around me happy. I learned to stick up for myself and speak up. I learned to be myself no matter what because being anyone else is too hard to keep going. I learned that I can be truly beautiful just by being me, just like Bunje.
Not to mention, I learned a little about writing along the way. I learned the different types of modes that a paper could contain. I learned a crap load of literacy devices and when to use them. I gained some skills in memorization and public speaking, even though I am still completely intimidated in front of a crowd.
This year, mostly the stuff Bunje said, taught me to see things through a different eyes. I was able to step back and see that I was either being realistic or completely irrational. I learned that hard work can pay off and that there is a sense of accomplishment, that I had never knew existed, that comes about once you go from a failing grade to an A.
I have to say that I met, saw and understood people’s motives more than I ever have in my entire life. I honestly learned how to have stronger, closer relationships with people; something I have no really been able to do since my Mommom passed away. And, even though I went through this year kicking and screaming, I feel like Bunje was always there cheering me on—even when I thought she had turned her back on me and given up. I see her with news eyes now and I am glad to have had her as a teacher. While she taught me a lot about school, learning, and English, I think I learned far more about life than anything else.
And, with that—See You Soon!
Class of 2011~ WE ARE GOING TO BE GRADUATING IN JUST ONE YEAR!!
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ReplyDeleteMy oh my junior year. We’ve certainly been through a lot, you and I. We started out the adventure a little shaky, but now with a little wear and tear, we’ve made it a lot better off on the other side. It wasn’t always easy, it wasn’t always fun, but we made it, didn’t we? As my time with you concludes, all I have to say is, Thank you, for helping me find who I am.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, aside from outside of school life, my junior year has been AP Lang. Like no offense to other faculty who tried to educate me, but really, every ounce of effort went into 204 and I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I’ve always been labeled “smart” but in Lang, I truly felt like I, along with everyone else grew into this title fully. Just today, in the beginning of the year, we never could have lead a discussion like we did, and today we were just like BAM listen to us go. I was so proud of all of us! I can’t single out one day that was my absolute favorite, but the collective school year made me a lot more confident about my writing and my readiness for senior year, even though I still don’t feel like that’s real. But senior year, goodness my hopes for senior year, I just want it to be the best. This year was hard, realllyyyyy hard, I’m excited for a little less stress.
As for what I’ve learned, I could possibly write a book on all I’ve learned this year, but here are a few that were more important.
• Don’t be afraid of mistakes, embrace them and learn.
• Know who you are and hold on tight, it’s not always easy finding yourself after you’ve lost her.
• Accept that things won’t always go your way. Be content with second, or even third, place sometimes.
• Things tend to work out for the best.
• You can always turn around.
I’m leaving with these lessons, myself, a rejuvenated spirit and amazing people who aren’t graduating even though some are seniors. Sad face. But for anyone who played a part in my self discovery, thank you. Small bits of advice can mean a lot, I’m eternally grateful. I’m going to miss 204 and this blog so much, I love you guys <3. See you next year, and then never again. I’m gonna go cry now =(
Aw Kristie! I know you didn't. At the time though, I wasn't so accepting or nice enough too. (:
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ReplyDeleteWhen I look back at September, it seems so foggy...a blurry memory. Where did the time go? This year has been one of the WEIRDEST YEARS EVER. I like weird though, so it's okay.
I remember freshman year in Rock's class...I hated everyone. I'm not going to lie. I hated the majority of you, but I was also a self absorbed, ugly (inside and out) and narrow minded person. The person I was freshman year is now a stranger and I'm glad she's gone.
Sophomore year was the year I started to connect with "outsiders". I made some new friends, and lost some of my best friends. This was the year I got really close to Alix and she really let me escape my boundaries. Honestly, if it weren't for Alix, I'd probably still be in freshman mode. I knew we were going to be close when we met at summer classes before freshman year… HAHA SIKE. We both thought the same thing when we met each other, "WHAT A FREAK." We still think that, but in a more positive light. :) Costal and his class opened me up to new ideas and views of both myself and others. Still, I was not convinced.
Junior year came around and J freaking V decided to make me his partner in crime. Actually, no. I'm really his sad little side kick who is forced to do many things I don't want to. Haha. JV, here's the truth. I secretly enjoy everything even though I act embarrassed or miserable. I have so much fun with you, and we've gotten so close. My mom adopted you after One Acts! You’re my brotha! (Or my son according to facebook..)
This year, to me, was a coming of age. After years of my parents hating my immature ways and telling me to grow up, I did. Yet, I didn't.
Room 204 accepted my immature and quirky attitude and even praised it. This doesn't go to just my class, but to all the classes. As I've read your blogs, listened to your amazing and beautiful OPs, and laughed with you, I realized that we're not all so different at all. I was wrong as a freshman. I alienated myself because I either thought of myself as above or below some people. Like "The Alchemist" states, we're all one. We all have stress from school, neglect and pressure from families, wants and needs for passion and love, and wishes to just escape the halls of Oakcrest so we can fast forward toward our dreams and futures..
I don't know if my class in 204 could tell or not, but I was a little different in the middle of the year in comparison to my bubbly and funny self at the beginning. Not only was the stress and intimidation of AP getting me down, but I also had major problems at home. Still, listening in class and joking with you guys made things better. At times, 204 really was an escape. You guys cheer on my dreams as a cartoonist, and I in turn did the same for you all. I think the only thing I want more than accomplishing my goals is to have all of you accomplish yours. You guys have become my family and I am so thankful for you all. I'm thankful for the experience and the insight. I was going to drop out in the middle of the year along with Shelly, but I'm glad I didn't. I told myself that I was probably going to fail, but getting through the end of the year in that super difficult class was a reward in itself. I didn't give up. I think the biggest lesson I've learned in this class is, "Go with your gut." Not only is "gut" a funny word, but the phrase is so true. It helped me on the AP exam and it helped me in life. I don't want to second guess myself or doubt myself anymore. I don't want to be intimidated, but inspired.
ReplyDeleteI know senior year is going to be amazing. Not only will I have my best friend home again, but a million new close friends by my side. It feels so good to wave to a thousand people in the hallways each day. I don't get tired of it at all. I've gotten to see every one smile and I've heard everyone's own unique and special laugh. (If you remember, in my "This I Believe" speech that was one of my goals; to hear everyone's unique laugh.)
So, thanks guys...all of you. Especially you, Bunje. Like I said in the beginning of the year, you’re just like Batman. (and now just because he’s bad ass!) You may have some people who don't approve or dislike you, but that's just because they don't know you...they don't understand you. I believe us kids of 204 are all your little sidekicks. We're all Robins! Haha! (This blog just got super corny and nerdy?) You took us through some very personal memories and events in your life that no ordinary teacher would tell. You treated us all as adults, and that’s what we grew into. (Not the ones you hate though!)
So, this year…I leave 204. I leave it not as a new person, but the person I’ve been inside all along and finally let escape.
BUT…in the words of ARNIE FROM TERMINATOR… (my favorite movie btw.)
I’LL BE BACK.
Taylorrrrr (From Hannah)- Your blog made me kind of sad but then again happy at the same time. I was happy because I never thought about how I contributed to helping other people find themselves and that made me feel like a good person. Then again it's sad to know that most of us have found ourselves this year..because once we have then what is there to do? I thought it was fun freshmen/sophomore year trying to figure out who I truly was and everything. Now that this journey is coming to an end I just feel really sad for some reason.
ReplyDeleteKatie G (From Hannah)- "Not only will I have my best friend home again, but a million new close friends by my side."
ReplyDeleteI couldn't have said it better myself. This summer is going to be amazing because of how close I've gotten with all of the people in my grade, and half of the reason is because of 204. Last year I hung out with mostly seniors because I told myself I hated half of my grade, and I'm excited to see them again this summer. However, I realized how much I missed out on class of 2011 the past few years and this summer I will make up for it. I love everyone in 204 and everyone in our class, too. I've never felt so close to such a variety of people.
Manar -
ReplyDelete"I still gave people chances. Otherwise I would be miserable and running away because of a couple of first impressions."
Okay, this is going to sound really, really bad but, I didn't have a very great first impression of you. And, to be honest, I had a lot of doubts that I would like you.
That's not because I thought you were, stuck up or you were mean or something, it was just because you were different. (Wow, that sounds, really, REALLY bad, but let me explain). Throughout the years I've been in this district with all these people, there have been the same kids in the "accelerated classes" over and over again, but with some changes. There have been people we lost on the way through high school because they drop out, there are people that enter, such as the mullicans and fit right in smoothly but, something about you was different that for me, made the transition not so smooth. But, I think that's because you came by yourself, and that your energy was unlike anyone I've ever met before. Which is my book, is a good thing, I just mistaked it for being bad. But, I'm glad you're in my lang period because the addition of your unique, powerful energy was good. I feel you really have expanded the AP horizons. :)
KTG -
ReplyDeleteHah I'm with Gwen right now, and I read the beginning of your blog and we were both like, "WHAT?!" And then we both remembered we weren't even in your class freshman year, so we were safe. :) (I think!). But anyway, in regards to this: "Still, listening in class and joking with you guys made things better. At times, 204 really was an escape." I completely agree. I feel like sometimes 204 is a completely different world, and (as fruity as it sounds) everything else just melts away. Even with Death Month, I remember I had a truly *horrible* day. A horrible confrontation with a friend, a horrible doctor's appointment in the morning, just horrible fighting with my parents, and then I had to come in and do a lang test. But, even though doing a lang test sounded horrible, it really wasn't. Concentrating on something else, getting into another world was just, better. Everything else literally just, went away.
Junior year wasn’t what I expected, but really my high school years haven’t really been what I expected either. I guess why is because I honestly didn’t know what I was getting myself into this year. Of course I knew that AP classes gave work and I wasn’t afraid of that, but this class made me afraid because in a sense it was reality. Many high school students would avoid this class, looking at the intimidating calendars that Bunje provided for us each month. Yet, intimidating or not I am glad that I had the experience because I learned so much about myself and about life. I experienced the real world in a sense, Bunje emphasized deadlines, and punctuality wouldn’t accept late work or being late to class because hey, in the real world your job could be on the line for missing the deadline. I have experienced how to trust people in a sense, I am more comfortable reading my work in front of people, saying what I have to say and I feel that I can continue this into the real world. What I have also learned that I haven’t realized until now is that I am comfortable with who I am. I have made new friends and have been more open and just more free of caring what others think. I think this class has helped with that because I feel that Bunje let us express ourselves in anyway and I thank her for teaching me that and letting me develop who I believe I truly am. My favorite day was probably when I did “ This I believe,” I cried like a baby but there was something so therapeutic about it that it was worth the tears. I feel like I finally was able to ripped of the bandage that has been protecting the pain from my previous experiences, sharing it with the whole class I feel gave them a whole new perspective on who I was. I think that was the best lesson ever because it brought me to tears because that’s how much passion and feeling I put into it and I guess it is truly something I believe whole-heartedly in. I definitely have matured drastically and in a good way. I learned that in life you have to give up things in order to grow up and I also as I mature I feel I have been making more decisions based on how it feels in my heart. I feel like I took more risks with my heart this year, which is crazy but I was brave even though the outcome wasn’t what I wanted. I hope senior year will be filled with memories, more growing to do as a person internally and pure FUN! I just want to really thank period 9/10 for letting me be Brynne, letting me draw flowers all over their papers and for their support!! I also want to thank Bunje for teaching me about being okay with who I am and really listening to my heart. Honestly, Bunje after reading the Alchemist I think that you are an omen or your class is that is guiding us toward our personal legacy and I thank you for that! To all the AP Lang Kids: It’s been a tough year, but you have all came out learning more than you think you have learned. I am proud to call you all my classmates and I cant wait to see what senior year brings for you guys. In the words of Bunje and the alchemist ( sum up what they are basically saying)“We have everything we need to in order to move on and successful as seniors, as well as when we get to the real world!” GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!! That’s all she wrote!
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ReplyDeleteTaylor -
ReplyDelete"Accept that things won’t always go your way. Be content with second, or even third, place sometimes."
Though I don't quite agree with the word "content", but what you're saying, I do agree with, and I think we were all forced to learn that this year, whether all of us want to admit it or not. We all went through some kind of struggle, and went through some kind of failure. Even those with straight one hundreds, came to some sort of academic conflict. Even those with picture perfect families, had their own conflicts at home this year. I've seen the tightest groups of friends fall apart this year as well. We've all had to deal with some sort of failure, and we all learned to deal.
Brynne - "My favorite day was probably when I did “ This I believe,” I cried like a baby but there was something so therapeutic about it that it was worth the tears. I feel like I finally was able to ripped of the bandage that has been protecting the pain from my previous experiences, sharing it with the whole class I feel gave them a whole new perspective on who I was"
ReplyDeleteOh, Brynne, your paper was incredible. Seriously, it gave me chills and I didn't expect you to just start crying. It made me so sad, I wanted to cry with you. Even though you say it made you feel good I was still sad! And then I had to go after you, and my paper was all about laughing! I didn't plan on getting emotional during the part about my grandfather, but not only was my grandpop on my mind, but you were too! WAA! I love you!
For once, I'm at a loss for words. Ok, I'm often at a loss for words, but rarely so when I have a computer screen in front of my face and a keypad under my fingers It's not that I have nothing to say; quite the contrary! I feel a flood coming on, of tears and typing, so much to say, so little space, so little time. This could rival my last OP... on second thought, I think I'll try to contain myself a bit more than that! ^_^ More to come...
ReplyDeleteAs with many other Lang students, this year has been all about finding myself. Until the beginning of this year, I was basically a total recluse, with very few people I could count as true friends and even fewer that I felt truly knew me. Looking back on it now, this state was a decision, brought about by my total refusal to talk, crack jokes, or just socialize in general. This year, though, my silence wasn’t just accepted. Bunje basically made me talk in discussions, and although I resented it at the time, being forced to talk definitely changed my entire year. I’ve always known that I’m a pretty intelligent kid (which Bunje thinks is a flaw, and I agree in some cases), but I never knew that I could express my ideas verbally without sounding like an idiot. Suddenly, though, I was forced to speak, and I discovered that I wasn’t too bad at it. Even better, I discovered that I like winning arguments, which made me form opinions about things. Eventually, I was contributing in every class (to some degree, at least), and I liked it.
ReplyDeleteThe changes didn’t stop there, though. Through the considerable changes that I underwent this year, I was transformed into a much better person (I’d like to think so, anyway). I also developed a personality (who would’ve thought?). Basically, I’m a lot less boring now than I was at the beginning of the year, so I started talking to a lot of people that I had never really paid attention to before. I found people that I fit in with (sort of), so I’m happier now than I was before. Overall, I’m much more satisfied with my life now than I was in the beginning of the year.
However, I’m still far from perfect. I still say a lot of stupid things (think rude and pretentious me), I still suck at basically every sport, and love still seems to escape me. Oh well. I’m a work in progress, I suppose, and overall, this year has been a big improvement. As I said before, my subconscious self-improvement basically resulted from Lang, so I suppose I got a lot out of being in 204 all year. I have no idea how next year is going to go, so I’m just going to wait and find out. The way I see it, it’s dumb to expect something out of senior year, because if I had expected to change this year, I doubt I would have. Change is best kept unexpected when it concerns self-improvement, so I’ll just ignore the prospect of being a senior until that time comes. Also, I’ll never really feel like a senior, because I still look like I’m thirteen, but I suppose genetics cannot be changed. Whatever. I’ve learned a lot, I’ve matured a lot (more mentally than physically), and I’m a better person because of this year. Thanks, I guess. Hopefully I’ll grow even more next year. I guess that’s it… I’ll see you all next year.
KTG- Thanks so much for being like that! I didnt want anyone to judge me and I am really happy for your support it makes me smile! I missed your paper though which stinks becauseI was soo upset! I love your smile , it's adorable and you are adorable!! I love you too girl! :)
ReplyDeleteAlexis, please take the advice given to you, and try to remember what has happened this year, and to never stop bettering yourself. You can be the leader you want to be, you can inspire people just as you want to, but, you can't lead unless you become a leader yourself.
ReplyDeleteDeanna, I love you. And that will never change.
Gwen, I'll probably see you all summer, but, thank you for this year. ^_^
Jessie, I never quite told you this, but throughout the whole year, you're the one that impressed me throughout the whole year. Granted, everyone's worked hard, everyone's made achievements, but, I feel like you're the one that impresses me the most.
Bunje, I feel like you're the only teacher that makes me actually believe in learning again. I said throughout the year that I lost interest in learning because it came with so many costs. But, you really made me believe in learning again and in school, and becoming intelligent. I meant what I said in my blog about intelligence, that you were the most intelligent person that I know. Thank you. For everything.
I think my favorite lesson was doing declamations. Not just because I like being up in front of people and speaking, but I think it's important that people learn how to speak in front of people as well as learning how to write. Also, declamations made me able to see people speak that don't normally speak, and it was interesting seeing what they chose because I got to see a little glimpse of their minds. Also, doing these lit circles are great. It really shows how much we've grown and how much we've learned. We are now mature Langers that can have full discussions and lead them by ourselves. It's beautiful. Which, leads me to what I've learned. I experienced a very challenging course that took an academic area that I was never quite challenged in and pushed my boundaries into a whole new light. I learned that when push comes to shove, every person has to do what they gotta do for themselves. I'm a lot stronger now, after this year and this course. I didn't quite finish the year with the grades I wanted, the impression on people that I wanted, but considering all that happened, I could've done a lot worse. Even though I lost a lot, even though I didn't conquer as much as I wanted to, or as much compared to Deanna or Shirley or any other people, but I survived, and I conquered so many other things I never thought I would, even though I lost other battles. I'm better, and I'm different. I'm not only a little bit more mature, but I have a lot better sense of who I am. Not completely, but, I'm closer. I don't know what I want to do with my life, I don't know where I'm going, but, I feel better. Is that weird? Well, I don't know. That's the only way I can describe it. I feel better. My junior year, on one overwhelming side, was a nightmare. But, there were little lights in there that made it not a complete loss. I got to spend a lot of time with Gwen, a lot of time with Linda, I got to see who a couple of my friends really were, the fact that some of them weren't really friends at all. I got to look inside of lives that I never got to look in before such as Stephanie Willman's and I met someone with a new, completely different energy, Manar. I think my junior year was, kind of the universe getting even with me. For my whole life I was really lucky. I was lucky with school, lucky with friends, lucky with love, lucky in music, I was just, lucky. And my junior year was the universe trying to shake me awake to remind me that there is a real world. But, now I see that. Now I'm awake and alive and I can go into senior year with the knowledge that we should never stop working or fighting. My senior year, I want to be happy. I thought that my senior year was going to suck because Steven, who has been my best friend and with me through high school, wouldn't be there and my sister, who's been with me through my *whole* life wouldn't be here, but, maybe that's good. Maybe I need a change, I just hope that change will make me happy.
ReplyDeleteI want to begin on a pragmatic level since, although it’s completely against my character, I don’t want this blog to be totally effusive. So, Bunje, the most realistic, practical gift you gave me was the gift to become a better writer. While I loved Rock’s and Costal’s classes more than yours (I’m sorry!), you are the only English teacher in my high school career that actually made me see a tangible improvement in my writing skills. I mean, we actually wrote! I really, really thank you for that, because I love to write, and I’ve been waiting to see an advancement for quite some time now. While the laughs from Rock and Costal are now distant memories, my writing will always be with me, which is why, by the transitive property :P, you will always be with me, Bunje. ^_^
ReplyDeleteMy favorite moment this year actually happened before school started. It was during summer enrichment -- the first day. I remember you saying, Bunje, that structure based things like tests and quizzes don’t matter, because if you can sense some thought in us, we would be okay; you would take care of us. Consequently, when my other four AP classes created maelstroms of stress and tumultuous feelings, I never really worried about your class. I just kept what you said in my head. When I doubted myself on a TS/TD, I just repeated “Bunje will take care of me.” As long as I did my best, you’d have my back. So, I thank you for that, too. You’re the first teacher I ever had since sixth grade (with the exception of Matlack) whom I actually feel wants to know their kids. God, basically Bunje, I love you!
There are a few things I want to say to other people, too:
Manar: Girl, I love you! I thought you were amazing from day one, because your outspokenness is something I’ve always admired in people. I’m sorry you had a less than favorable first impression of me, but I’m glad you’ve changed your mind since then! ^_^” I’m so happy, as Kristie put it, you “came to America!” Haha, enjoy your new country xD. And lastly, thanks to you, I’ve got my go go go go go go go go go go gadget flow!
Kelsey: Please be more confident in yourself! I’ve never met anyone who immediately brightens up a room as well as you do, so appreciate your gift! You make people happy, Kelsey, simple as that. You’ve helped me through Calc and Chem and it’s been really great to see your personality a piece at a time, seeing as how I didn’t really know you at all from previous years. I hope you continue to just be yourself and don’t get discouraged if reality falls *short* of your expectations!
Oh, and Lauren Day. I remember Layla P. and I were talking about you in sixth grade. We thought you were perfect. Just wanted to say that I still think you are. ^_^ I love your entire attitude about everything, and I’m striving to be more carefree like you.
Everyone though, everyone in AP Lang this year -- it’s been amazing to meet and rediscover you all! I hope all of you have wonderful summers! If you ever find yourselves bored though and needing something to do, you can always get in contact with me. :]
Alexis: I love you, too. I don't know what happens from here, but I don't fear the future. Just smile, be happy with the friends you have, and if you ever need me, Kale Nagasaki is always on duty!
ReplyDeleteManar: 'Nuff said. I already talked about how awesome you are!
Stephanie: Did I ever tell you how beautiful you are? You better hang out with me this summer! We still need to finish and see what happens to Bulma! @_@
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ReplyDeleteAlexis (From Hannah) <-- that's so annnoying.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I agree with you about lit circles being one of your favorites. Sometimes I just start listening to everyone I just forget to speak up, myself. I like to listen to what everyone else thinks because they usually have different ways of interpreting things/looking at them. It's fun to go around and listen to everyone and be able to put in my opinion at the same time.
Ok folks, this is it! I say that with a smile and a cringe blended into one. I can hardly believe that this year is almost over; the last few months have truly flown. I have so much to say that I think I’m going to have to break it down into sections with cute little titles. I’ll start off easy with class “favorites” in general, move on to messages to my fellow Langers, jump headfirst into an OP-esque review of my year-(what I’ve learned, how I’ve grown), then wrap it all up neat and pretty (hopefully!) with a look at life ahead. Here goes:
ReplyDeletePART 1 Picking Favorites
It’s so hard to pick favorite times from my year in 204. One of things I’ve enjoyed most is reading and discussing the two post-AP books, “The Art of Racing in the Rain” and “The Alchemist”; I feel like not only our discussions but also the books themselves have taught me so much… Like “that which you manifest is before you”; I needed to have that shouted in my face. But I feel like by focusing on the more relaxed in Bunje English, I’m discounting too much of the rest of the year. Grueling as our AP schedule was, we definitely had some good times, even during Death Month! Lang definitely gets the award for AP class with the most/best parties, and our Valentine’s Day Extravaganza was a day to remember. I am especially partial to the declamations, and the second one was especially fun—I really got into it and was left with a sense of great accomplishment! Ok, wonderful, now that I sparked that memory I’m going to sit here and try to type coherent sentences with memorized poetry flowing through my head. Anyway, let’s see, I enjoyed the lit terms project and learning lit terms in general, but the latter just because I’m kind of a nerd and think it’s fun to say things like “he held his breath and the door for me” and “time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana” (just forget about me screwing up during the contest practice run and forgetting periphrasis—sorry!) While they could be sleep-reducing and stress-inducing, I largely credit TSTDs and our FOURTY articles for helping me perfect my ability to break apart text from a writer’s perspective in time for the AP exam. So not exactly “favorites”, per se, but the memories of both will stay with me. On a side note, all of the period 11 fire drills stick out in my mind as well, not because I was happy for them at all, but because they always seemed to interrupt a good discussion! Obviously the folks running Oak have no idea how annoying that can be! ^_^
PART 2 We are Family
ReplyDeleteFellow Langers: Thank you for giving me the opportunity to know every one of you this year through blogs, OPs, class discussions, and just in general school life. It’s been a good year, and you’ve all taught me so much. I learned things about some of you that I never would have guessed but which only made me appreciate you more. I was awed by your strength, intelligence, and determination. You made me smile and laugh when, whether you knew it or not, I really needed a distraction from life and your enthusiasm for learning inspired mine. You’re all amazing writers and people in your own unique way. Keep being you, rock this world! See you all next year—okay, tomorrow, but let me have my fun; “next year” sounds so much more profound—and get ready for seniordom! One-one!
Stephen and JV: You two have especially inspired me with your unique perspectives on life (obviously very different—Stephen, your political knowledge and your ability to shed light on especially “deep” topics in class discussions in ways that I never could and JV, your zest for life, fashion, and the arts) and your abilities not only to stay strong and keep your eyes on your dreams but also to remain true to your true selves despite living in a world that often puts gays in a negative light. You guys are awesome, never forget it! I have to add, Stephen, that your last OP had me smiling non-stop; you give me hope. :)
Kyle: Although I never got to really know you, I’ve always appreciated your unique and refreshing take on life. I’ll never forget your “what is, what is” OP; as much as it made my brain hurt, it also sent me into fits of laughter. Keep being you!
Britt: I don’t know how I would’ve survived without you. Whether it was sending a panicked late call your way to make sure I got all of the homework, venting, or just sharing hopes and dreams, you were always there. I admire your determination and ability to stick it through, even when you had to work harder than some of us, and still come out smiling. So… THANKS!
Steph: We didn’t get to talk as much as I would’ve liked this year, but when we did, you were always there to listen or make me smile. Next year, we’re going to rock Oak… or at least you are and I’ll cheer you on! Oh, and you have every right to drag me to prom by my hair if I try to sit it out again. ^_^ I let that, and tons of other fun times, slip by when I really shouldn’t have, and I vow to do my best to not let that happen again!
Shirley: You’re unique upbeat personality is so refreshing! I always appreciated you being there to set me straight when I started freaking out about something Lang-related (“Oh my God, do we have a _______ today?!?!?!? I’m so going to FAIL!!!!”). Thanks for dealing with my craziness and being there for me! You, too, will be joining us at prom next year! :)
ReplyDeleteDeanna: You are a Lang genius. Your writing is beautiful, and constantly inspires me to better my own. Of course, you, too, have dealt with me freaking out about assignments and you’ve always put me in my place. You’ve listened during some tough times, as silly as they might have (should have anyway) seemed, and I really needed that… so thank you so much! Your dedication and unique views on life have been truly inspiring!
Maryam: I really wish I got to know you better sooner. I’ve missed so, so much this year. But anyway, your artistic side has especially inspired me, as has your contemplative and considerate nature. Your love, and you know what I mean, as well, gives me hope. ^_^ Also, I appreciate your ability to listen. I hope I haven’t been annoying; if I ever am, please just yell at me. :)
Ms. Bunje: Thank you so, so, so much for EVERYTHING this year. I will be back to haunt 204 next year… if you don’t mind. ^_^ Most basically, but certainly not without great significance, you have helped shape me into an inspired and passionate writer. Freshman and sophomore year, I wrote. That was that, a chore. I dreaded essay due dates looming on the horizon like deep grey storm clouds. This year, not only did the barrage of writing assignments thrown my way force me to accept writing as a part of life—certainly not something to dread—but, little by little, they shaped me into someone who actually enjoys putting, well, fingers to keyboard. “Pen to paper” sounds more poetic, though I prefer to type and “pen to paper” is, perhaps, a bit cliché. But I digress. Because of the stimulating assignments and attention-grabbing readings you’ve given us Langers, not the least of which have been OPs and the final paper (<3), I’ve grown to actually enjoy the writing process. While I still don’t find much pleasure in, oh, say research papers, I greatly enjoy poetry as well as more blog-sort of topics as well as papers (think the final) that allow me to use my imagination more freely. So I thank you for that… I also greatly appreciate how you’ve taken teaching beyond the traditional and not only taught us to think outside the box in class but welcomed us into your/our 204 home throughout the day. While it may seem less profound, the things I appreciate most are your decisions to introduce us to “The Art of Racing in the Rain” and “The Alchemist” and our final project. We read these books during/just after a time in my life when I was feeling exceptionally (and pathetically) lost and hopeless. The messages contained in each have helped me realize that the light at the end of the tunnel is really a light, not a train, as an Owl City song goes (“Is that the light at the far end of the tunnel or just the train?” Sorry, couldn’t resist). Also, the final project led me, rather accidently, to a quote that shifted my perspective, a shift that was reinforced as I read “The Alchemist”. Anyway, I think I have a stronger idea of who I am and my path in life—not to mention the mistakes I’ve made along the course of junior year and how I can, hopefully, improve myself and avoid history repeating itself yet again when I enter seniordom. This is, of course, just the tip of the iceberg (oh wow, another, this time unwitting, Owl City reference!) of what you’ve done for us. Just know that I appreciate every moment I’ve spent in 204, and the effort you’ve put into making this an awesome year for all of the Langers!
PART 3 Me, Myself, and I
ReplyDelete3a In Retrospect… REWIND!
Before I go super deep into my journey through junior year and its ups and downs, twists and turns (assuming you’re still with me at that point! this is getting LONG), I want to rewind to a few interesting quotes from my first blog and how my initial thoughts played out…
- “In short, I am not expecting much sleep!”
I laughed out loud when I reread this one. Of course, it turned out to be totally true. I don’t say that begrudgingly; I suppose most sleep that I lost was totally my own fault, just a byproduct of how I decided to spend my waking hours (though I will assure you I wasn’t a total procrastinator, I just had so much to balance, school and otherwise, that something had to go. The something was sleep.) Still, I find this strangely humorous. I learned so many profound lessons junior year that it’s funny to contemplate the mundane ones I’ve picked up along the way—like the art of sleeping on the floor, the uncomphy couch, and the rock-hard bus seat; the skill required to get a 3-minute shower at 5-something AM; the ability to fake wakefulness when you’re running on 5 hours of shuteye max; and the interesting phenomenon that, once a weary night owl gets over the heavy-eyelids hump around 12-12:30, staying awake for the rest of the night is easy as pie (haha, that sparks another Kyle memory!). I’m not bitter, like I said, missing sleep was my choice/fault; I’m just amused.
-“However, one of my biggest fears for Lang is that I will be unable to step up to the plate and write AP-worthy papers. I can picture myself is a downward spiral, reverting back to the writing of my Green Bank School days.”
Well, I already mentioned how much my writing and attitude concerning writing have improved. I just thought this quote was interesting because it made me remember my initial fear and feel good to have emerged victorious!
-“…but in a nutshell my goal is to branch out and meet new people and to be more upbeat, friendly, and talkative. Despite everything else, my biggest challenge this year is to be able to hear the word “high school” and not cringe. I want to find something to be happy about in Oakcrest, and I really want to wring some fun out of academics this year.”
I regret saying that this really didn’t come to fruition until the last quarter of the year, and when it did it came in the silliest way. I spent much time dreading school and grumbling to myself about it, and it took me a long while to became more “upbeat, friendly, and talkative”, but finally my attitude did shift and I did improve, somewhat. To be continued below…
3B Journey (and it’s no coincidence that they sing Don’t Stop Believin’!)
ReplyDeleteJunior year has been one heck of a journey. I came in excited, then I died. School work brought me back to life, and I marched on, interested enough, but in semi-zombie mode. Life in school had one purpose: be an academic success. I did fairly fine in that venue, but I lacked any sort of social life and even my academics lacked passion. I didn’t place a ton of emphasis on what others thought of me—given, that is mostly in a positive way; e.g. I wouldn’t be a jerk, because that’s not me, but I would come to school without giving much thought to my appearance and I rarely let my quiet side bother me. Life carried on in this way for quite awhile. Then, one day, I woke up. With wakefulness came self-consciousness in a very negative sort of way. I criticized myself for being unattractive, uninteresting, un-anything-you-can-think-of. I was never satisfied with choices I made, and I relied constantly on what seemed like logic, though even that backfired and I was left with another adjective to stamp on my heart: “stupid”.
I beat myself up for a lot of things this year; it’s a bad habit, I suppose. I worry too much. But now, thankfully, I’ve come back to life. I like to think that the books we read and some of the quotes I found turned me around and gave me a different outlook. I’ve learned that following your heart isn’t stupid; it’s a good idea, and you can almost always turn back. Thinking you’re stupid is stupid. I’ve discovered that I need to pay more attention to others; I feel like I, very much unintentionally, hurt someone and I can’t take that back. I’m a firm believer that “your car goes where your eyes go”, and, although I find it hard to accept many things without logical and tangible backup, I’ve taken many of the principles from “The Alchemist” to heart as well. Though I feel worse for wear, I’ve come to truly know myself through my experiences, the bad and the good. I fear being thought insufficient or annoying; on the other hand, if I take on the right mindset and make myself believe that, as long as I stay positive and put effort in, I have a sort of Personal Legend that’ll help me get somewhere worth going. Like I mentioned earlier, I realized that I’m especially hard on myself, and certainly harsher than I need to be. Honestly, the other day, I was angry with myself for being happy over a teeny tiny insignificant bit of my day. I told myself that it was ridiculous to be so elated because of something so silly, because I felt like I was blowing my life out of proportion, distorting reality, and would sort of be setting myself up for disappointment. But, instead of remaining bogged down by my mind’s negative rationalization process, I decided that it really didn’t matter why I was happy. I was happy, and I should embrace that.
I feel like I missed a huge chunk of my life this year by staying in the background. So many opportunities were missed, and so many realizations hit far too late. I’ll never get back that which I passed by. Tempus fugit, and life has no rewind button. But that, I suppose is what learning is all about. I’ve come out of this mess of a year a better person, and that’s what counts. Sure, I’ve missed a ton of things along the way, and that’s a price to pay. Doors have permanently closed, but new ones are just waiting to be opened. I just have to keep looking forward with a smile on my face and hope in my heart.
PART 4 “Oh, no
ReplyDeleteYou say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello”
Onward and upward! At this point, the idea of leaving high school for summer fills me with a strange combination of teary eyes and uncontainable enthusiasm. I don’t quite want to leave school yet, odd as that sounds, and I’m nervous about senior year. Never the less, I need that break that summer will provide, and I’m excited to make senior year the best year yet. I want the 2010/1011 school year to be as fun as possible. My hope is to be able to give academics the attention they deserve while making the most of life. I want to leave with no regrets. I don’t want to wish for retries, or contemplate could-have-beens. I’m going to take chances, and I’m going to have fun. I’ll make it matter.
FROM HANNAH
ReplyDeletePart 1
Wowwwwww, the last blog. There were points during this year when I said to my self, “Oh Hannah, what did you get yourself into by taking this class..” But then immediately after that I added, “Well, at least it will be worth it when it's over.” And that's exactly how I feel right now. I may not have done everything right, aced all of the vocab quizzes, or even passed the AP test, I don't care. I learned soooo much more than I could have learned anywhere else. I never though a teacher or a class could have such an impact on me. I've learned that a family can be made out of anything. A family can consist of actresses, race car drivers, horse lovers, chess players, runners, lacrosse players, teachers, or anything and still be one of the tightest bonds ever made.
Back in January when everything seemed to be going wrong, I just wanted school to end so badly! I hated school because it caused 75% of the situations that made me so mad, but then again without school I don't know where I'd be. I'm not going to lie I hated lang for a good period of the year only because I'm dumb and waited until the last minute for every assignment. But, I signed up with it so I had to put up with it. Now that it's coming to an end I'm a little bit mad at myself for not being grateful that at least I had a class to look forward to every day, despite the work. It just won't be the same next year without a class to go to where I know I can say anything and express my feelings. And even if I don't do that often, it's still good to know that if I wanted to I could, and that's all I really need.
There were so many hilarious moments in our class, and two of them stand out in particular. One would be way back in September when I wore a bathing suit to school and Ms. Bunje happened to notice the strings hanging out of the side of my pants. I stood up and explained that I didn't have any clean underwear because my dad told me to do chores (one of them included laundry) and I retaliated by not doing them. Jokes on me because I was the one without underwear. I can't believe I just posted that for a bunch of people to read, but it's cool I suppose because we're a family! Another one of the best moments would have to be when I read my Call of Duty paper. Oh, and there was that time that my name was a simile for a word that meant despicable... Now that I look back on it, this year had its ups and downs, but they were mostly ups.
Part 2 (Hannah)
ReplyDeleteOn to the next question- What will you leave here with? Well, obviously I'm going to leave here with an intense amount of knowledge because last year for me was a complete joke and I did absolutely nothing. It was quite the change to go from college prep english aka cp sleep/do nothing class to jump into ap lang. This year was a huge wake up call for me and I realized that high school is not a joke anymore and I needed to take things more serious. Another thing I will leave here with is the memories. There were countless times where someone would ask a silly question and we'd all just crack up. And last but not least, I will leave here with the knowledge that I will always have a place where I am welcome and I will always be part of a family.. 204.
I am way different this year than I ever was. Last year was such a drag; nothing productive happened at all. I had no motivation to do anything or talk to anyone. This year, however, I had to put 100% into everything I did because I would fail if I didn't. I've failed almost 3 classes just so I can maintain a C in lang!! I know so much more this year, not only about ap lang stuff, but about life. I can't even begin to explain how much I've changed, but I know that it was for the better.
As for my hopes for senior year, my main goal is to not lose touch with anyone. I want to be in class with all of my old friends and just enjoy the relaxation and ease that comes along with senior year. I think we all deserve it at this point.
And to everyone that took this class/Bunje- This is sort of bitter sweet. We've all waited for the class to be over all year because of the work, but now that it's over it's sad. I just want to say thanks to everyone for really inspiring me to do certain things in life and I always enjoy the positive reinforcement I get from everyone. I'm going to miss you all so much even though I'm sure a majority of us will keep in touch this summer and next year of course. You guys have been wonderful friends ever since I met you. Thanks for everything :)
Love, Hannah
To Jessie: I did yell at you about 'that which you manifest is before you', did I? Good times in study hall. You kinda spilled your soul to me sometimes, and I appreciate your honesty and trust in me.
ReplyDeleteMy greatest disappointment with my time in 204 is the fact that I was given the opportunity to show the world that I am not afraid to lose the poker face, and failed to take it. I am still too afraid to let anyone near my heart - but I am better, in that way. I have a less negative view of my peers, although I am still suspicious of them, and see them as people who are worth my time and effort to befriend since they are some of the best people I have had the pleasure of dealing with. I got the most practice out of AP Lang than in any of my classes ever combined, in developing real social skills, social confidence, and trust, as well as practice in writing - which I would have gotten anyway in my spare time, true, but not the same kind of writing with the same kind of critique. It has been a very valuable investment of my time, despite some instances that I felt betrayed or unfairly treated in which are not even worth mentioning in detail, with all the good that came of this class.
ReplyDeleteThis junior year was better than any of my school years ever, since it was relatively painless and extremely profitable. I have gained a wealth of information, about academic subjects and more importantly how human beings interact with each other, which will stay with me for the rest of my life. Again, the pain is outweighed by the good - I have been treated unfairly by my peers, but have been treated generously by the students and teacher of AP Lang. I have been disappointed in myself sometimes in class for misrepresenting myself, but I have also reached out in a way that I have never done before, in any situation. I am thankful for the sympathy of my classmates that I have received consistently throughout the year, even though I refuse to go into detail about my troubles which may make me seem superficial.
I want to end the year with a statement that may surprise many of you: I am not pessimistic. I may seem that way, because I say things like "you cannot change the world" (which I meant to mean, 'you cannot change the world to suit yourself') and because I tend to bring more negative things from my life into my work and my discussion (there isn't much positive to bring in, I'm afraid - hence my reliance on the simple things for happiness). But I really am the most hopeful person that I can be without being irrational. I always see the good in things, and I see good in every single one of you, even the people who I have not really met or gotten to know. I can feel the goodness in your hearts - it's almost tangible. And I am glad to be in the company of great people. Not children, not peers, but people.
Manar: The ending of your blog is so true. Things don’t end they only change form. I love it. Which brings me to my next thought, YOU ARE ARTICULATE AND ELOQUENT AND LUCID AND INTELLIGIBLE AND SILVER-TONGUED. Thank God for the thesaurus, but all everything I said is still true! You’re an amazing writer, artist, and friend, and I’m very fortunate to have had the chance to get to know you this year. I’m so glad our paths crossed! :-)
ReplyDeleteBrynne: I am PRAYING that senior year is pure fun, too! I don’t think I can make it through if it’s as stressful as my three previous years of high school. On a lighter note, I’m glad you are more comfortable in your own skin after this year. You are a beautiful person inside and out and I’m so lucky to have you as a friend. I hope that one day you realize how truly amazing you are. :-)
Jessie: (in response to your first post) I agree with you completely and have no idea where to start! I have so many different emotions for this year, I can’t think of a way to relate them all in one blog. However, I scrolled down a little and I’m happy that you found things to say. :-)
This year, I learned what bathos and bildungsroman mean and how to write a synthesis essay, but that’s not very interesting since you all (hopefully) learned those things, too. On a much less boring (but still boring) note I learned that it’s okay to answer questions about myself. The blogs have been daunting and I have definitely stepped outside of my comfort zone, even in not being the most self-expressive (in terms of substantial things, not my AHHHHHH! energy levels) person in the class.
ReplyDeleteI personally still am not totally on board with letting the colors of personal life and life outside the home mix (although I am cool with black and white mixing), but the realm that the blogs asked us to enter taught me things about me that I knew, but simply never perceived, and, even if I may not have fully delved into a few of the questions, I’m glad I thought about them. Through learning this lesson and answering those questions, I experienced a confidence boost. At times, I felt like I was going through a self-doubt detox program.
My favorite day was when I read my first OP (this is in retrospect because then I felt horrible). I was literally shaking in my boots. Well, not literally, because I wasn’t wearing boots. I was a nervous wreck, stuttering and sweating. My pulse raced, my eyes never left the paper, and my foot never stopped tapping. But I did it. I finished, and even though my fight-or-flight impulse was screaming to flee, I stayed and fought, even if I basically did get owned by two sheets of paper and a few staring eyes. Now, I can read a paper with minimal shaking, fidgeting, and sweating.
My favorite lesson wasn’t truly a lesson. It was yesterday, during the book discussion. I got really into the discussion, probably because I got really into the book. I had a revelation of sorts and made a whole bunch of connections. I was impressed by my class as a whole and how nearly everyone said something that made me think not just about the book, but about the world beyond the pages. I left looking at the world in a slightly different light, and isn’t that the purpose of education?
I remember one tournament weekend. I actually don’t remember which now, but I’m guessing it was in late fall/ early winter. Anyways, we had reading logs and a paper due on the day I got back. My soccer coach always gives a very strict itinerary, and I know and respect my own personal curfew, so I was really lacking the time to be able to focus on the work that I needed to do. Despite this, I budgeted my time as best I could and stayed up despicably late on the night that we drove back. When all was said and done, I had baggy eyes, a dead computer battery, and two finished and well-done assignments. After a nap in Baird‘s, I regained the ability to think and was proud of myself for pushing the pedal to the metal when it mattered and producing quality work.
I think that now I am better at setting my priorities and managing my time. With the way that soccer and APs took over my life this year, I really had no choice but to suck it up and better manage my time since I wanted neither to fail nor drop off in soccer. If my dreams are recognized and I end up playing D1 soccer, I will undoubtedly need the time-management skills I learned here, and I will probably need them next year and in the workplace, so this change is definitely for the better.
My junior year made me cry and sweat and hurt and disappoint and smile and celebrate and impress. Basically, the only thing junior year did not make me do was sleep. Junior year made me more on top of things and morphed me into a more self-actualized person. It taught me the value of a nap and that
ReplyDeleteNow that I’m conditioned for a marathon, I’m hoping that senior year will be a 5K. I’m looking forward to enjoying some downtime and actually being a high school student instead of an AP zombie. Sure, I’ll have three AP classes, but like I said, I’m conditioned for a marathon. I’m ready to take on whatever senior year tosses my way and maybe even have a social life outside of school and soccer.
So, to myself: kudos for making it out alive… and at least somewhat sane.
To everybody: "When you want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it," so follow your heart, your dreams, and your instincts.
To Lucas: hey.
Manar: I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it like that! My brain just went crazy for a second. It’s not my fault that your scarf and my shirt were the same color! It was pretty funny though. I love all your different colored scarves and learning where they were made too. It must’ve been really hard moving here in the middle of the school year, especially in high school, but I’m glad you did.
ReplyDeleteJourdan: “My favorite day was when I read my first OP (this is in retrospect because then I felt horrible). I was literally shaking in my boots. Well, not literally, because I wasn’t wearing boots. I was a nervous wreck, stuttering and sweating. My pulse raced, my eyes never left the paper, and my foot never stopped tapping. But I did it. I finished, and even though my fight-or-flight impulse was screaming to flee, I stayed and fought, even if I basically did get owned by two sheets of paper and a few staring eyes. Now, I can read a paper with minimal shaking, fidgeting, and sweating.”
ReplyDeleteWay to go Jourdan! I was exactly the same way… and my first OP was not only HAPPY but also written about my cat (a simple, tangible, and far less personal topic than those into which I delved later on). I was like that during class discussions, too, albeit to a lesser degree. I often felt like I didn’t have something profound enough to contribute relative to the rest of the class’s insightful ideas, and when I did speak up, I tended to do so quite nervously. Now, I’m much more enthusiastic about discussion; I read my most personal OP yet fairly calmly (ok, I was horrible for the first page and a half, but then I did relax; I declamed not only successfully but also with enthusiasm; and least Lang related but perhaps most profound, I taught a chem class and had fun doing so –no shaky knees at all!
I started this year thinking that it was going to be the worst year of my life. All I heard sophomore year was people complaining about the workload for AP Lang and I told myself that I would never do that to myself. Well what do you know? I took it. For probably more than half of the year, I honestly constantly questioned myself on my reasoning for taking such a class. After all, English was definitely my worst academic subject. All this class was doing was killing my GPA and causing me stress and sleep deprivation. Why would anyone put themselves through such torture voluntarily? Well now I know why. I believe that I’ve learned more this year in AP Lang than I have in any other class previous. And I’m not just saying that. Not only did I learn the required material for the AP exam but I’ve learned a lot about life. The life lessons were definitely my favorite days. I feel as if I’ve matured a lot this year and I owe a large portion of that to AP Lang – or more specifically Bunje. Thank you for not only being a great teacher, but a good friend that I know will always be there whenever I need someone to talk to.
ReplyDeleteI started Lang this year dreading coming to class everyday and praying that I wouldn’t get called on. Now I sometimes actually look forward to going to class and saying how I feel. Crazy right? I think Lang has better prepared me for not only my senior year, but my future. As the other AP Langers were learning about me, I was also learning about myself. Writing blogs and OP’s really made me dig deep within myself to learn about Kaitlin Hare, this stranger, to make her someone I now know and somewhat understand. Next year, I hope I can further understand this person named Kaitlin Hare. Hopefully I can know her enough to make good decisions for her, especially those post graduation, like college and the rest of her life in “the real world”. Enough in the third person though. After all, it’s me. I just want to be able to make my own decisions and for them to be the right ones. I think AP Lang has opened my eyes to situations that I may be faced with and how I should act in those situations. If I make a mistake along the way, at least I’ll learn from it. I just don’t want to make any irreversible mistakes. That’s what I fear. However, I think AP Lang has provided me with knowledge and insight that will allow me to prosper in the harsh world around us. And not only me, I think it has allowed all of us to grow this year. I truly believe that AP Lang was a necessary step in my life journey. I’m glad I didn’t miss it.
Here I am, sitting in lounging around with my puppy, Whiskey, as I watch the first season of Pokemon on this awfully rainy day. If it were two months ago, I would most likely be scrambling to study for a Thermochemistry test, and a Civil War test, whilst rushing to finish Text Says/Text Does, Psychology Vocabulary, and a French story.
ReplyDeleteThis year has thrown a multitude of adversities towards my direction, but nonetheless, I hurdled through and succeeded. However, in order to rise, one must fall. My biggest disappointments of this year was not only discovering the dark, true sides of a few ex-friends, but more importantly, not letting myself work up to my fullest potential. But, in the words of the almighty Kid Cudi, "everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold." I now know that I won't let anything get in the way. We are able to do whatever we want, and only a quarter of the process is skills-- the rest, motivation and practice.
My junior year has brightened up my eyes, and for the first time in a long-time, it feels as if I'm truly living. The best changes that I've made this year was 1) quit smoking cigarettes *7 months in! It was 5 years of those toxic wastes*, 2) stray away from band and, saving the best for last, 3) join lacrosse.
Though I've always been an active person, I never truly dedicated myself to a team sport before. Lacrosse has taught me so much about about perseverance, and dedication. Not only did I learn to become a stronger person, but I started to become closer friends to some amazing people!
In two days, the school year will be completely over for the majority of us, for the sake that we take almost all AP classes (meaning no finals!<3). Meaning, that's right, we are now going to face our senior year. I have no expectations for my senior year, except one: I would love to go to UTexas @ Austin.
I have no words for any particular friends because if we talk, we'll talk, and I'll tell you exactly what's on my mind; however, I do have something I would love to share with all you AP Langers:
Through my observations from reading these blogs, and listening to your beliefs in class, I would like to say that I am truly honored that I was able to experience this AP Lang adventure with you guys. There is no doubt that when I read these blogs every Tuesday late-night (because I am a procrastinator </3), I envision future leaders. I am surrounded by artists, dreamers, inventors and geniuses. There is nothing you guys really can't do because you have all of the potential in the world. I am enthralled for all of your futures because I know that you will all be damn-right successful. Now, don't let anything stop you from your aspirations and dreams.
Even though I'll some of you this summer, I would like to tell the rest of you, be safe and half fun!<3
Now, Bunje. Oh, Bunje.
Thank you so very much for such an experience. You've taught me more things than I can learn in a matter of three years. Not only have you taught me about the English language, but you were also able to make me view life in a completely different light. You have shaped and shifted my perspectives, and well, how could I ever repay you? You're an extraordinary person, and you're so damn beautiful; inside and out. Even though this year has ended, and you will no longer be my teacher, I will still visit 204 on a daily basis. Just because the year is over, what's stopping you from teaching me more life lessons, right? :) Love you!
Jourdan: Time management! You are so right on that one! I’m a procrastinator. That’s just how I am and how I’ve always been. Homework for the weekend? Definitely done Sunday night. However, Lang also taught me that procrastination must be overcome. I want to be successful and I’m pretty sure that those who hold the highest positions in the workplace aren’t putting their visuals and speeches together the night before their big presentation. More than anything, I want to be on top in my career, and I’m sure you do too. Time management is a very useful skill that Lang definitely has improved. On a different note though, good luck with your soccer! I’m sure you’ll do fabulous and even though I don’t know much about soccer, from what I hear, you are pretty awesome! Keep working and properly managing your time and I’m sure you’ll succeed – you filthy zebra. Remember your invective Valentine?
ReplyDeleteJunior year was…I guess you could say crazy. It went by so fast, I’m not sure that I ever completely felt like a junior…whoa sorry I guess I’m just processing the fact that we’re all going to be seniors. Seniors?!! When did that happen?! Well while I try to wrap my brain around that I guess I’ll reflect on my junior year which seems so long and yet so fast. It seems to be so long because I feel like I’ve known everyone in 204 forever but I still can’t believe this year is basically over. Anyway I definitely have labeled this year as one of the hardest years I can remember. It was incredibly challenging and at times I hated it. I felt like the entire year was one big rush, like there was one thing right after the other and there was no time in between to get back up after being knocked down. But you know what…I don’t regret anything about this year. I mean I did at certain times when I felt overwhelmed but looking back I think I needed this year. I needed the difficulty; I needed all of the experiences that were thrown my way. This year gave me a sense of determination that has been there all along but never really surfaced before because nothing had ever pushed me so much. I wanted to give up so bad this year. I’m not going to lie, I really did but I felt like I had to prove that I could make it. I think lang changed me a lot this year. It helped me mature a bit more and it pushed me out of my comfort zone. I needed that push. I hate being pushed but it’s one thing I need above anything. I’m thankful for the experiences and everything I have discovered in lang. I’ve learned so much, it seems like I now look beyond the surface of any event, person, or just basically anything that enters my life. I look for deeper meanings now and it has helped learn so much more about life. My writing, while it may not be amazing, has still improved I think. I used to just write to write. Just to get an assignment over with to get by (there were only a few occasions where this was not true). This year though, this year was different. I began putting emotion into everything and writing not only for class, but for myself. I pulled ideas from life experiences, something I had refused to do before, and used the feelings and stories in my papers. This class made me open up more, which I am beyond thankful for. I know I still don’t talk as often as I should but believe me I have opened up much, much more than in past years. I can remember our first declamations, I was beyond nervous, public speaking has never been something that I loved. In fact it makes me so nervous that I tend to forget everything that I wanted to say. So memorizing and forgetting don’t exactly mix which is why I was terrified of declamations. I remember not being able to remember if I had said all of my lines after it was over. I was sure I had failed but when I found out I hadn’t I felt accomplished like hey, maybe I can actually handle this. Even when things didn’t turn out so great I felt like I had friends behind me supporting me all the way. I just want to thank them for not giving up on me. Bunje too, I want to thank you for all of your help and advice, it’s always meant a lot. Oh and as far as senior year, I’d rather not set standards. I just want to see what happens, I mean I hope it’s a fun year that I won’t forget but that’s all in the future and at the moment I’d like to focus on my present. So who can believe we’re almost seniors?! It’s the end of my blog and I’m still thinking about it…it has to sink in sooner or later. Anyway there are too many words to describe this year but one thing I can say is that I am proud of all of my classmates this year and everything we have all accomplished!
ReplyDeleteTaylor—“You can always turn around.”
ReplyDeleteI definitely learned that this year. My year seemed like a roller coaster. I noticed though that no matter how bad things seemed there was always a path leading straight back to the top. Well maybe it was a curvy path but you get the point. It was never too late to go back and find a way to improve things. It’s a major lesson I learned this year. I think it’ll apply to events throughout life as we struggle with the ups and downs we are handed.
Brynne—“I learned that in life you have to give up things in order to grow up and I also as I mature I feel I have been making more decisions based on how it feels in my heart.”
I noticed that giving things up this year was required in order to grow as a person. I think sometimes we need to let go of things especially if they hold us back so that we can grow as individuals and become exactly who we want to be. As far as basing decisions off of your heart I think I’ve pretty much been doing the same thing this year. I threw logic completely out the widow in some cases. And I can honestly say I don’t regret the decisions I made even if they didn’t turn out how I hoped. They helped me learn and I plan to continue on this path to see where it leads.
Jessie—“Doors have permanently closed, but new ones are just waiting to be opened. I just have to keep looking forward with a smile on my face and hope in my heart.”
Ahhh I love the optimism :) this is very true. There are always opportunities waiting down the road and I know there are plenty waiting for you and everyone who opens those doors. There are so many points in your blog that I liked; it’s hard to concentrate on one. You mentioned being happy without a reason to be, which is wonderful. I find that on random days I’m bright and cheery and a little crazy for no reason at all. There really doesn’t need to be a reason though because happiness is always a positive detail of life.
Taylor:” • Don’t be afraid of mistakes, embrace them and learn.
ReplyDelete• Know who you are and hold on tight, it’s not always easy finding yourself after you’ve lost her.
• Accept that things won’t always go your way. Be content with second, or even third, place sometimes.
• Things tend to work out for the best.
• You can always turn around.”
Awww, I’m sad! Your blogs are always so fun to read, and I love your cute little metaphors… and now this is it! Anyway, I enjoyed your list of things that you learned this year. I, too, have learned many of the same lessons. Thinking back, all of us, really, did grow so much this year. Like how you mentioned that our class has been able to just take off running with discussions… wow! We’ve come so far as Lang students and as people.
Hannah: Oh Hannah, reading your best memories for the year has really made me miss you. I got to spend some time with you in 204 after school during the winter season when I was waiting for swim practice but that was seriously the extent of our time together, besides the second I saw you in Applebee’s picking up food. Anyways, I wish you could’ve been a part of my awesome period – after all, we were the “I Have, Who Has” champs. I’m sure you would’ve added a nice touch to our class. Hopefully next year!
ReplyDeleteBritt:
ReplyDeleteThanks! And yeah “whoa sorry I guess I’m just processing the fact that we’re all going to be seniors. Seniors?!! When did that happen?!”, I’m right there with you! Gosh, I feel like I was just a freshman… no, I feel like I was just a Green Banker graduating eighth grade! The first half of highschool was fast and this year was just crazy. Although I don’t quite want to leave junior year behind just yet, I am so ridiculously excited for next year!
Wow, indeed. I cannot believe it’s already over. This is our final blog. This is our final time together, as a Lang family, sharing each other’s personal thoughts and beliefs. These are my final words. So, here it goes.
ReplyDeleteThanks. Thank you Bunje. Thank you 204. Thank you Blogger.com. And thank you every SINGLE one of this year’s AP Langers. Thanks to you, I don’t have to look back on my junior year and think it COMPLETELY sucked. Yes, it was a horrible, arduous, and painful year nonetheless, but Lang was practically my only inspiration to keep going. I concentrated on this class, and on this class only, which is partially the reason for my otherwise sinking grades in my other classes. But, it was worth it. Concentrating on an essential and life-changing class is so much more valuable than concentrating on a pointless and pain-staking class like Calculus. Anyways, focusing my studies specifically on Lang brought me to focus on general life. And with that, I learned things I will take me to the grave. Things that my mind couldn’t even fathom before this. I came in as an immature, unaware liver of life. I come out a mature, conscious, and completely content lover of life. With months of studying, all nighters, and cramming, I think my journey was well traveled. And, like I mentioned in my occasional paper, this class is no doubt a very imperative omen on my journey towards my Personal Legend. It was a strenuous year no doubt, but I think that’s exactly what I needed. Life isn’t laid out like a red carpet; it’s a bumpy, windy road that needs its road blocks. With Lang, I probably wouldn’t be AT ALL prepared for the tough endeavors that await me in the future.
But, that isn’t the most life-changing thing I learned this year.
Bunje drilled this saying in my mind this year, “Go with your gut”. And as much as I hated doing it, I’ve learned to make it a habit. 204 has given me the inspiration to follow my dreams, follow my heart, and follow my gut! Talking about The Alchemist with my Lang family put me to tears; I was flooded with emotion. Because I appreciated that you guys CARED. You guys cared that I so desperately want to follow my dreams, and to tell you the truth, I’ve never met such people. So, thanks to Lang I will forever go with my gut, no matter how many times I’ll think of reasons not to.
It’s not a hyperbole to say that I’ve changed DRAMATICALLY this year. I really have. On the starting line of Junior Year, I was a different runner. I focused on academics, set out my future, and held high expectations for myself. Basically, I was everything I don’t want to be now. After Lang, I’m focused on what I want; not what my parents want from me. I’m me, and I’m not ashamed. I’ve never been more open-minded, more mature, and more aware of my surroundings. I feel as though I’ve been eternally enlightened from 203, and I will be forever grateful. I will miss our discussions. I will miss our laughs. I will miss our cries. I will miss our 2 minute vocab quizzes. I will miss every single thing about Lang. After this year, even if we all weren’t in the same class, I feel as though we all have formed a strong and unique bond that we will carry with us into senior year and possibly the rest of our lives. We’ve all been traveling on the caravan, and as we battled through the desert, we come out with a similar outlook on life; this similarity creates our bond. Next year, I want to take all of my Bunje advice, my AP skills, and put them to work. Even if junior year was a bit ghastly, I won’t let it rain on my senior parade. And as you mentioned, this isn’t a goodbye. You know why? Because I’ll be visiting 204 almost daily next year! And I will be sharing my Senior year with all of you, which is the greatest blessing of all.
Chrissy H:
ReplyDeleteLike with most people, I noticed that your writing improved a lot this year. Just reading through your latest (and last...) blog post, there were several times where I thought, "You know, that was really well-worded". I'm not sure it's necessarily a good thing to give up completely on other classes though. Even though Calculus seems totally pointless, I am proud to say that I at least passed the exam (I'm pretty sure, anyway). Knowledge of a broad variety of subjects can help in ways you may not even realize. There have been times where I made connections between seemingly unrelated material and realized that I was much better for knowing it . Though Calculus sucks, it might still be worth learning. You never know what might happen.
Bella- Your blog was quite insightful, and your dog is adorable. That's besides the point, as soon as I read the intro to your blog all the feelings of the beginning of the year came back. It's crazy because here was are now and we are about to be seniors. I feel like those all nighters and constant studying are long ago. It's crazy that we all accomplished all of that :) !! I am sooo proud that you followed with lacrosse and hopefully you will follow suit with cross country!!!
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ReplyDeleteby the way, in my last paragraph i put "eternally enlightened by 203". HUGE mistake on my part. You know I meant 204 ;)
ReplyDeleteTaylor!
ReplyDelete'Just today, in the beginning of the year, we never could have lead a discussion like we did, and today we were just like BAM listen to us go.'
I totally zoned out today for two seconds during our discussion because I had the exact same thought. At the beginning of the year, I remember Bunje asking us 'Why did you want to take this course?' At first, no hands went up at all. It was one of those '....' moments. Several times I remember her saying 'Well, don't all raise your hands at once'. I was terribly afraid of speaking my mind freely. And with everybody thinking that way [ or close to it ] discussions always had to be prodded into existence with the help of Bunje posing questions every few seconds. Now, look at us. Our ideas, thoughts, feelings, just bounce off one another to form new ones. We talk freely, laughing at one another, and even offering advice to each other if a response reveals a problem within ourselves. I find it so amazing that we've grown in such a short time. It made me so happy just to watch us discuss like that, I can't even begin to imagine what that would look like from a teachers point of view.
Lucas!
First off, I love how your yearbook entry to me started off with 'So...well...All right...Well theoretically this year was fun'. Someone else read that aloud to me and didn't get it, but your humor never ceases to amaze me.
Anywho, when I think of someone that I KNOW for sure made a huge change this year, it would be you. I remember trying to talk to you in general. I've told you before, but it was like pulling teeth. xD The only thing that didn't make me give up and leave you alone, was the fact that I knew you had wayyy more to you than you let people see. I remember your laugh was even more reserved. But now, WOW. Even though you say your rude and pretentious,I'm just thankful that you're talking at all. Now that I can see more of you, I'm excited to see what next year has in store for us. I'm hoping that we have the same classes next year, because I'm not sure I can handle Kyle without you clarifying some of the things he says. PLUS! Those extra long, corny jokes that I find so funny, wouldn't be the same without you laughing with, well more at, me.
Jourdan!
'Basically, the only thing junior year did not make me do was sleep.'
This statement is funny and everything, but mann, it's so truee! Junior year made me, forced me actually, to do soo many things that I never would have thought I'd be able to do. There are parts of myself, that I'm not entirely proud of, that I realized I possessed. Usually, when I noticed these things, it was around 2 in the morning when I was no where close to finishing my homework. I've never been to close to exhaustion in my life. Part of my year is a bit blurry, because I'm sure that I was sleeping through it, and I always need a jumpstart to remember certain events. But now, looking back at it, I'm thankful for even the lack of sleep. I remember thinking last year that I could stay up as late as I wanted and not have a problem in school the next day. Boy, was I wrong. I remember crying, getting angry, even throwing things, but the only thing that pushed me through those nights was the ability I gained to buckle down on myself. Your statement held a hugggeee amount of truth. And although I'm thankful for the experience now, I hope I never have to go through that again for months at a time during my senior year. xD
Rob- I am so glad that it was a good year for you! I saw you open up a lot more and let people know how you were feeling.I saw you laugh and smile a lot more which is great! I enjoyed having you in the class you gave good insight and you made me seee things in a new way plus your really funny! I am glad this year gave you the chance to trust people more and it takes baby steps to fully trust someone. We all keep are heart guarded, well I know that too, but remember sometimes life is worth taking risk because frankly sometimes you have to lose everything but always know you can get it all back!
ReplyDeleteRobert F:
ReplyDeleteYou're a great writer. Despite the missed opportunities you talked about, I think you still improved a lot in your writing, which is saying something because it was really good to begin with. You're a very intelligent person-I've seen it in everything of yours that I've read-and I'm sure you can make it far in life. I agree, also, that this year was far more beneficial than harmful. I learned a lot, and I think it was worth all of the sleep-deprived nights.
Jourdan- I love the description of your first OP moment. When I came and I realized this class takes a lot of heart to be able to share so much, I thought you were all crazy. You are all crazy, but in a phenomenal kind of way. I was like there is no way in hell that I will be able to read an OP, declaim, or stand there with a This I believe. Guess what? I did, we all did. It was one of the greatest things this year, that we got up there with trust, confidence, and learned from each other. Now I get up there, and without a doubt I'm shaking inside in fear I mess up, but I can get up there knowing that if I do mess up, I know the class will be more understanding because we all developed that "Unspoken Language."
ReplyDeleteKaitlin- Seriously people, I mentioned that stuff because it was funny, memorable, and well it's exactly what made 12 period special. With that said, NO APOLOGIES, first of all I'd have nothing to look back on and laugh, and I enjoyed it! So thanks for making it that much more special!
Alexis- That didn't sound bad at all. No one ever said that to me, the energy thing. It sounds really cool, it actually makes me feel a bit more special (: I'm glad you feel that way, and believe me AP horizons were expanded for me too. I didn't realize not only was I getting something different, but you and the class were also getting something different. That consideration is probably what I over looked the most.
Lauren- Aww Thank you. (silver-tongued sounds AWESOME, just saying) You're so sweet! Nooo, I will not mention how PICTURE PERFECT you are inside out!.... Oops, did I do that? :] Honestly when I first met you, I kept thinking ANGEL! Why is she so angel like? Though I know there's very tiny horns holding up your halo, you're still ever so kind, genuine, and all smiles. I'm going to miss someone always laughing with me and ending with an, "Ohhh Manar..." (:
Deanna N:
ReplyDelete"While I loved Rock’s and Costal’s classes more than yours (I’m sorry!)"
I found myself thinking this the other day as well, but then I realized that it wasn't true, at least in my case. Though I thoroughly enjoyed Costal's nonstop humor, I think I've ultimately enjoyed finding myself just as much this year. Instead of fits of laughter, this year gave me a sense of contentment with my life, which is probably just as valuable, if not more so (plus, I still got my share of laughter every time Kyle said his "intro"). This year was definitely the most memorable so far. Thanks, Ms. Bunje, for helping me get started on the path to self-actualization, and thanks to everyone for making this year so great.
In room 204 I can say I actually learned something, whether it’s lit terms or life lessons 204 will forever leave a mark on my soul. I can remember my first day entering Bunje’s room intimidated and naïve to the rigors I would soon be facing. Well the wakeup call came quick with our first assignment, followed by a vocab quiz, followed by a blog, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I learned to pick myself up after failures and learn from my mistakes. Just as I became adjusted to the workload, Bunje would go and increase it and I would have to start from scratch. Though this year was difficult and through my grades you would never expect I learned anything, I can definitively say I know the challenges that a college class will bring. Throughout the year I had my crowning achievements, as well as those which, well cannot exactly be described as “crowning”. My letter to Chris Christie was in my mind my “finest moment”, and for my favorite lesson declamations would have to be it. Declamations helped me in so many ways public speaking being number one, as student council president public speaking is a top priority and the things I learned from 204 will stick with me throughout my entire term. Junior year set the stage for my freshman year of college, without Bunje and the entire 204 gang I don’t know if I’d be up for college level classes. No offense to Cervi but watching movies and doing chapter reviews is not preparing us for anything in my mind. Room 204 did something that no other classroom could, it presented us with an atmosphere where our dreams could excel and our minds were not burdened by the constraints of a regular classroom. Before I embark on my summer vacation I want to leave everyone in 204 with this. I thank you all (including Bunje) for giving me the opportunity to enlighten myself in ways I never knew possible. I can easily say that being included in the 204 family will be one of the best high school memories.
ReplyDeleteJourdan- I love your analogy on how you compared our junior year conditioned in a sense that we can run a marathon. Yeah, though 5k's are intense, it's less severe than a marathon and I hope senior year is like that. I think it's great that you really enjoyed the last lessons of class because that shows that you will learn up until the last day of school. I am super glad you could balance school and soccer. I will say this with no doubt you will definately play D1 soccer after conquering this class and because of the passionate and determined person you are!
ReplyDeleteIt feels so odd to say that junior year is finally coming to a close. While it seemed as if it would never end during the grueling months of October through May, looking back on this year, it all seems one giant, painful, yet enlightening, blur. I’m not going to lie, I was not prepared for all of the challenges I faced this year. And again, no lie, I know I could’ve done much better. But as it ends now, I can also honestly say that this year has taught me so much more than how to recognize synecdoche or the order of the United States Presidents. This year has taught me lessons of life, lessons I will carry with me until I die.
ReplyDeleteI am definitely a different person than I was when I began this year. I came not truly knowing, well, anything. I had no idea as to who I was or what I wanted to do. I may not know concrete answers to either of those issues even now, but I am miles closer. I learned how to focus myself on many things, without losing all competence in each thing. I learned that people are cruel and selfish, and that there is no true cure to others downfalls. I learned that people sometimes aren’t who they seem, and that people change, with or without you. I have learned to cope with unbearable pain, to later harness the feelings of triumph I obtained from escaping this pain. I learned to never stop moving, never letting one catastrophe lap over the next. I learned to listen, and to care. I learned that I want nothing more than to help others, to be the best person I can be and never exhibit selfish qualities. I learned the value of helping others and considering all sides of an argument or dispute. I learned to stay true to myself, never falling prey to peer pressure or outside influences. I learned to relax instead of breaking under the immense amount of stress that beleaguers our everyday lives. I learned that every life has value and need never be wasted. I learned of agony, I learned of love. I learned of life.
There hasn’t been an abundance of moments that I could consider my “favorite”. My favorite thing about AP Lang however, would have to be, the competitive games and activities that involved fun and expression. Not that any of the other lessons were horrible, it’s just that it’s nice to have a brief reprise from serious discussion or tests. AP Lang was the hardest course I have ever taken. I was tested mentally in ways that I had never before experienced. Whether it was staying up until 3am to complete TSTDs or preparing for a presentation, every aspect of the class challenged me mentally. I learned to get work done in an effective manner and that preparation is key to success. But most of all, I discovered some of myself. Through the blogs and Ops, I delved deeper into myself than ever before. I dug out memories I’d rather not and opinions I didn’t know I had. I learned to explore myself in totally new ways, and it is this reason that it has been my most valuable class. I may not have gotten great grades, but I know that I succeeded; I know that I have become a better and more intelligent person as a result of this class.
ReplyDeleteI definitely hope that next year will be a bit easier than this one. While I’m not taking any value away from the lessons I learned through the hardships of junior year, I don’t think I can deal with consecutive years of chaos. I look forward to experiencing a fun and relaxing senior year with all of you, I am sure we will have fun and make the best out of our final year at the Oak.
And to Ms. Bunje: Thank you. You have been one of the best teachers I have ever had the opportunity to learn under. You are such a strong person and, whether you know it or not, I have learned many things from you. I never truly understood how you felt about me, I still don’t, but I know that you have definitely positively impacted my life. I will never forget you or the things I have learned in room 204. The love and hope you bestow in all of your students is one of the most powerful emotions and bonds I have ever witnessed. You truly do care, and I appreciate it. Once again, thank you.
“See you later.”
I remember when I came into the Summer Enrichment for Lang and how nervous I was for taking the class. I remember Bunje asking why I was always so monotonous. In my head I thought "here we go again" because I've always been told by past english teachers besides Mr. Costal that I have no voice, no "me" in my papers. Since Bunje recognized that, I told myself since she was the only teacher that pointed out my often monotonous voice, I'd fix that in Lang. I thought about expectations and I realized I really had none other than becoming a better writer. I had goals, things I wanted to accomplish, but I really didn't expect this class to be good or bad.
ReplyDeleteI can say that this year alone, I've learned and experienced more than I have the 3 years before combined. I've experienced some horrible and painful moments, and I've experienced some really enlightening moments. But from every single one of those moments, I've discovered something not only about myself, but the universe that has always been there but needed me to realize it. I've had the help of some very special friends that have pushed me to so many revelations. Some of the most important revelations I've had were my philosophy love and Sufism (which is the spiritual/mystical part of Islam). But in Lang, the most helpful thing was definitely the blogs. I admit, I wish the due date was a little later because I'm nocturnal and I concentrate better at night, but thinking about some of the questions made me think deeper about aspects of life that I only had a mere surface thought on. Although there were some blogs that had me stumped or I really wish I didn't have to answer but I learned to face them and delve into that arena of my thoughts. I don't really have favorite moments because when you really think about it, every moment can teach you something different, you just have to realize it.
There is no doubt in my mind that I'm an altered person. However by that I don't mean my personality or nature has changed, but that I have grown. I've grown into a person that looks at the world with 3 eyes rather than two, I've grown into a person that has learned the power of patience, I've grown into a person that can endure tremendous amounts of pain and still go on living because sometimes pain can be the only thing that makes you feel real. Honestly, I tried the best I could in Lang. I know it might not have seemed like it because I'm just not a person that reveals much, but I really did. I might have gotten so frustrated with the situations I have been in this year and how they made it almost impossible for me to complete some of my assignments, I may have failed, but I know that I did what I could to put my effort into this class and I didn't take this class just because it was an AP course, but because I wanted to learn things that I would have missed out on if I hadn't taken AP Lang. What I have discovered about every single one of you guys is amazing. I never really had bad jugdments about anyone but now as I read blogs and listen to the insights you guys have on love, happiness, life, etc, I see how truly amazing each and everyone of you guys are. I feel like I'm among REAL HUMANS after being around just people most of my life. Each one of you guys have taught me something special and distinct and I would never ask for more. Soo thanks to all of you guys, and thanks to Bunje for being our guide to discovering so many facets about not only ourselves, but also each other and the world. :)
Chrissy.
ReplyDelete“Life isn’t laid out like a red carpet; it’s a bumpy, windy road that needs its road blocks. With Lang, I probably wouldn’t be AT ALL prepared for the tough endeavors that await me in the future.” Wow this quote from your post really spoke to me, because I know without the challenges of lang I would be complelty blindsided my first year of college. I also love how you describes life as a bumpy, windy road, great metaphor;)
Brittany,
I can really relate to your blog post because I myself wanted to give up lang early on. The workload was outrageous, and I didn’t think I could handle it at all, but as time progressed I became better equipped and soon learned how to budget time and study effectively. Now I know that everything I learned in lang will follow me for the rest of my educational days, and it was worth every minute of it.
Kaitlin,
I love how you brought the life lessons you’ve learned into your blog. Besides helping me academically room 204 has taught me many valuable life lessons and even opened my eyes to things I could have never imagined coming in as a naive junior. Its crazy how one little English class can teach you so much more than you ever expected.
Dear Lucas,
ReplyDelete“Through the considerable changes that I underwent this year, I was transformed into a much better person (I’d like to think so, anyway). I also developed a personality (who would’ve thought?).”
Aww Lukey, see you’re the only one inhibits yourself, people aren’t the same as they were in Mullica or port or whatever wooded area you came from. And also, you are not a loser! You’re only a loser if you believe that you are and you’re not, so work on that! Oh and I’m completely with you on the not feeling like senior because of the whole still getting asked if I’m a Freshman thing…yep, gotta love that. Anywhos, GO TO THE BEACH because you said you haven’t been there in 4 years and MAKE A FACEBOOK! See you next year!
Jessie,
“My hope is to be able to give academics the attention they deserve while making the most of life. I want to leave with no regrets. I don’t want to wish for retries, or contemplate could-have-beens. I’m going to take chances, and I’m going to have fun. I’ll make it matter.”
GOOD! The only Life that gets a reroll of the dice is the Game of Life. This is the only shot you’ve got, don’t pass the ball off because you’re scared of missing the winning basket, take the chance, maybe you lose, but maybe, just maybe you win the game! P.s. Glad you liked your hand made year book!
Brit (Your name is so reference-able, but for fear of, yet again misspelling, this works too tehe! ),
“Junior year was…I guess you could say crazy. It went by so fast, I’m not sure that I ever completely felt like a junior…whoa sorry I guess I’m just processing the fact that we’re all going to be seniors. Seniors?!! When did that happen?! “
Mamma mia! Am I feeling the same way! This year felt so long but in retrospect it all flew by. I hate it! I’m so not ready to be a senior, I’m not ready for life after high school, ugghh I just don’t think I’m ready. Well, I guess there’s still a year to get ready but still. I’m terribly unexcited for the last everything that’s to come. But not to dwell on the negatives and go back into denial, this year has been super rough! But so incredibly worth it, so see you next year as a big, bad junior, mhmm denial.
Junior year has been a year of tremendous growth. It was definitely the hardest year of high school yet, but all of that work, studying, and stress really payed off. Not only did I learn a lot about effective communication and writing in AP Lang, but I gained confidence and learned more about myself and what I want out of life. I was motivated in this class more than I ever had been before and I developed relationships that will stay with me forever.
ReplyDeleteThis year was definitely tough, but I feel like I have accomplished so much! I remember wondering at the end of last year, and even a little at the beginning of this year, if I had taken on more than I can handle. Now I know it was all worth it and I'm ready to be challenged even more, a huge boost in confidence since sophomore year. I remember coming in to the summer class for Lang totally worried because I didn't know what to expect, but I left the first day feeling like I could do it. During the year I was tested and strengthened, and now I've grown.
This year I learned not only that I want to be an activist but how to go about doing that in a sensible way. I learned that I can, in fact, combine all my different interests like government, writing, and psychology and use them to help the world. I may not know exactly what I want to do (I've floated ideas ranging from working for Congress and the World Bank to NPR) but I've also learned that it's okay not to know just yet, and changing your mind is certainly acceptable. One of the classes that stands out the most to me this year was when we had the discussion on boundaries, and we learned that the only limits we have are the ones we create for ourselves.
This year I learned the importance of being true to yourself and knowing what you really want. Junior year tested our character, and I'm proud to say that I, and most of the people I know, came out knowing themselves better. Through OPs, blog responses, and class discussions we all got to know each other more, and in turn learn about ourselves. We exchanged and developed our own ideas and used each other for support when it got especially difficult, and for that, I thank all of you.
A special note to Ms. Bunje: Your class was the only class that really challenged me this year. If it weren't for your AP Lang I would not have grown as much as person as I did this year. You motivated me when nobody else did and I learned all about myself because of you. You were always there when I needed help or advice and I could trust you a whole lot more than most. Thank you.
So even though this year felt incredibly difficult at times I can look back on it and say it was the best one yet, and we still have one more!
Jessie: Your post was very well written and inspriring. Your reflections on many aspects of this year were deep and thoughtful, true reflections. I liked how you organized your thoughts into well written and cohesive secions, each with a different point of reflection and thought. I'm glad you've been able to evolve as a person and see some of your goals come to fruition.
ReplyDeleteAlexis: "I don't know what I want to do with my life, I don't know where I'm going, but, I feel better. Is that weird? Well, I don't know. That's the only way I can describe it. I feel better."
I can relate to this very much. I have also learned countless life lessons, yet still haven't found exactly what I want to accomplish or how I want to accomplish it, but I don't find that to be a neccessarily bad thing. This year has taught me that I can truly be anything I set my mind to, that there are endless possibilities. I am sure that each and every member of teh AP Lang family has evolved and become a better person, no matter if they have found their purpose in life, and I am proud. I am proud of everyone and their evolution through the undertaking of one course.
Bella: " I envision future leaders. I am surrounded by artists, dreamers, inventors and geniuses. There is nothing you guys really can't do because you have all of the potential in the world. I am enthralled for all of your futures because I know that you will all be damn-right successful"
I could not agree more with this quote. Through partaking in this class, I have discovered a plethora of geniuses. I was so surprised to learn about you all, and it amazes me. You are all individuals with limitless oppurtunity and I can't wait to hear marvelous things about each and every one of you.
AP Lang gave me a new perspective on life. I think, in a nutshell, that’s what I’ve gotten from this class. I’ve learned how to look at things differently. I’ve learned meaning of language. I’ve learned the many different ways one can speak. I just know that I will probably never look at a book the same again. I think that happens to me in every English class I go through, but AP Lang has changed it even more drastically than before.
ReplyDeleteMy favorite day(s) were always the days after a long haul of TS/TD’s were due. It seems like they’re always the days in which I feel most victorious.
My favorite lessons was learning the rhetorical devices because it helped me actually define the style of writing that I wrote.
My finest moment? I think it was the time we took the five question quiz that Bunje said that everyone failed and I got a perfect score on it.
I think that I’m a much better person now. I’ve gained much more confidence which has helped me a lot in fighting the things that I used to be scared of. Many people might think that it’s just me being pretentious, but I don’t take it as that.
Being confident and comfortable with yourself is not a crime. It is only a crime if you choose to use it negatively on others. I think overall, that’s what I gained from Junior year: confidence and, furthermore, bravery.
I was confident and brave enough to do things that have gained me so much “street cred” if you will. This year, I’ve directed a show that pushed the envelope. I was confident in myself and my peers that I would succeed in it, and I did. I was brave enough to do it and know that I will get judged for it. But guess who came out on top?
My only hope for senior year is that everything works out right. Of course, I’m worried about college applications and everyone going their separate ways, but I’m just worried that we won’t even have a properly functioning senior year. The budget cuts and everything just scare me that we won’t get to enjoy the things that we probably take for granted junior year.
Finally, what I needed to say to my friends…
Dear Friends,
Throughout the year, if I’ve hurt any of you, I’m sorry. But it’s part of our growing up. But, to all of you, thank you. Thank you for experiencing life with me. Thank you for teaching me all the things that I haven’t learned before.
Dear Me,
Kick ass next year bitch. Kick ass.
Love,
Jan Vincent Gonzales
Katie,
ReplyDeleteI hope you know that you inspire me everyday. You're the hero in my eyes! You always make me laugh with the crazy drunk things you say. I, honestly, have not had a moment with you where I did not smile. You're happy heart has kept me going through the darkest of times during this year. Oh and you must admit that you love pretending to be a man who's pretending to be a woman.
Jessie!
ReplyDeleteThat was the sweetest thing ever! But anyways, I don't want you to venerate me for trying to fight the negative because I believe that it's what has to be done. There's no question about it. But I'm so flattered that you said that. Anyways, like I said, stay true to your heart! If you want to ride horse, ride horses. There's nothing stopping you from being yourself.
Wow. The universal language speaks to me, I sense depression. :[
ReplyDeleteI can’t believe it’s almost over. This year. Finally! Ha ha, but at the same time am also saddened by this fact. I’ve gained so much over the years, more than I ever have the previous years. My writing has improved and most importantly it has given me a greater understanding. Understanding of the people around me, their lives and the way people think. It was pretty interesting. Okay, it was a lot interesting. I really enjoyed the discussions in class. It has broadened my perspective. It has made me think immensely about who I am and life in general. I’d never thought that an AP Lang class would do this much this year. And for that I greatly appreciate it. I appreciate everyone of you guys for helping grasp so much. Truly, I value it.
It wasn’t always gumdrops and sunshine. Honestly, I despised AP Lang. I’m not an English person, I do fairly well with Math. AP Lang was uncomfortable, I really thought I wasn’t going to pull it through. My writing sucked. I hated writing. And since that is what we basically did in AP Lang, I started to dislike the class as well. As time wore on, my writing improved and it wasn’t as much of an encumbrance. I became okay with it. Then came the workload. My most challenging, difficult and my weakest area gave out the most work! At first, I was like this is crazy, I’m not meant to be in AP Lang, this could be a sign (an omen ;]) that I shouldn’t continue on with it. But I didn’t budge, I decided to stick to it and give it my all. Also, with the help of my AP Lang friends I ended up doing fine (well I don‘t now cause of death month, it‘s okay though I‘m still happy that I gave it my all). Everyone has helped me. When I say everyone, I mean EVERYONE, some more than others, but in a way everybody contributed. The discussions and blogs really expanded my views and those of you who helped me on homework (You know who you are, good times :]).
This whole experience in AP Lang turned out for the good I would say. I feel like because of everything I’ve learned, I’ve grown so much especially in my thinking. Every moment that made me ponder or put me through a revelation, and there were plenty of them, has been special. Remember the love at first sight conversation? Or how when Bunje taught us how everything comes in steps? Those are one of the few lessons I’ll always keep in my head. Or the time how Manar was accused of wearing Kaitlin’s T-shirt? (I actually was laughing, just not as long as you guys) Even though I don’t talk as much, I will miss everybody in my class. We saw each other everyday, we have read or heard of each other’s stuff and therefore we are all connected. I don’t think I’ll ever forget you guys after high school. You guys are truly inspiring, thanks for everything again, I appreciate it. Thanks Ms. Bunje :]. I’ll definitely be seeing you guys next year! Good luck! We’re going to be Seniors! :] /:[
Jon,
ReplyDeleteI really have to agree with you with the point you made about public speaking. I've seen many people, even the seniors, say that they don't think that speaking in front of the class is necessary because it saves them from embarrassment. But through Lang, I've seen where that all comes into play. I've seen how it is important and I've seen how we've all improved in it. Anyways, I just wanted to say how proud I am of you when you won StuCo president this year! It was so nice seeing you grow-- from your camouflage jacket to purple socks ! :)
The roads we travel span the entire country, yet we keep ourselves confined to a small area. Aside from the additions and constructions that occur along the way, the roads are always stationary and remain the same. The paths we've followed in the past are always right behind us, and so we can't be scared to say goodbye, for it is never really a goodbye forever.
ReplyDeleteThis year is another chapter in my life, one I'd probably never read again. I would never want to relive it, but I certainly don't regret it. It may have been the most sleep-deprived, stressful, disappointing years, for numerous reasons, but I've never learned more than I have in the past ten months. Now that the weight is lifted off of my shoulders, I can only leave with the positive things that I've learned that I'll forever carry with me throughout my life.
Above all, I've learned something that seems to be quite obvious. You'll never know ANYTHING until you try it. I'm going to completely ignore my logistical mindset for once in my life and just try to follow my heart in everything I do. I never thought I'd achieve any of the goals on the back of my shining star, and I never thought I'd be able to write a three page paper without great difficulty (It may not seem like anything, but I'm typically the queen of brevity). I never thought that I'd be able to relate to every fellow AP Langer in some aspect, and I certainly never thought I'd care about the "Why" in life. But I do. I've come a long way. I'm still me, but I've only grown. As Shakespeare said, "My only love sprung from my only hate." I've been counting down the days until this seemingly never-ending year came to a conclusion, but I love what came from the experience, and wouldn't trade it for the world.
Bunje: I know that this isn't goodbye because I'll be back quite often next year, but I just want to thank you for everything and make sure you know, as I know you do, that you were born to do what you do. Room 204 has become like a second home to me. It's not the calming clue walls of clouds, or the walls that make up the room, but the welcoming atmosphere. You've taught me more than I've learned throughout all of my school years. I can honestly say that I have never trusted a teacher as I trust you. You're one of the most honest,or "real", genuine, and down to Earth, people I've ever met. I see why my brother opened up to you, as I did, and that says a lot, because he trusts close to no one. I've never confided in a teacher, but kept those two aspects, school and home, completely separate entities, but you've changed that. You've guided me, taught me, given me advice, defended me, supported me, and believed in me. I love you for that and I'm so glad to know that you'll always be right down the hallway when I need you.
With all of that said, I'm ready to leave this chapter behind and have the best summer ever! :D
KTG-
ReplyDeleteYou're so adorable! Quoting the Terminator definitely made your blog legitimate! I love reading your blogs every week. Not only are they simply fun to read, but your voice shines. Anyways, your blog basically conveyed everything my blog conveyed, which proves the point that everyone is "one". We're definitely more similar than we realize, and I thank 204 for our mutual connection. We're now a family, and I'll never forget our family. And I'll definitely never forget you. Can we PLEASE hang out during the summer??!?
PS why does this sound like a yearbook signature??
PSS You were going to drop Lang? That comes as a COMPLETE surprise to me, especially how incredibly insightful you are. Thank goodness you stayed. You add so much personality to our family :)
Jon - You said that your letter to Christie was one of your finest moments, but that blog was pretty kick ass. If our class had a "most improved" I think it'd go to you. Your writing is so solid and well thought out and organized and I doubt that any of us are focused on that right now, but you innately do it. I think you really got something out of this class and I hope it helps you out a ton in the future.
ReplyDeleteLucas: You're right. You've grown tremendously, and you see a side that you've never seen before. I know you though, and now that you realize these things, you have to act upon them. Your fear of a new way of living, this new perspective that you've gotten, will inhibit you from growing to your full potential, and you need to realize that. You're still learning and climbing that ladder, but in order to reach higher levels, you need to not just look at mistakes and things you could change, but change them and forget the fear. I just learned that that is the only way I'm ever going to grow.
ReplyDeleteI gave everyone in my class a shout out in my OP because I felt as if I learned something from every single one of them. I spent the most time with them, and they became my family in a sense. We laughed together, complained together, gave each other the crazy stare once in awhile, and eventually grew together into educated young adults more than prepared for our senior year. To all of you, thank you again.
ReplyDeleteNOW! To the others who I did not see regularly, but who I did not forget, even through the frenzy we called junior year.
Shirley - You’ve grown on me so much this year! We’ve clicked more, laughed together, spent more time talking and I’m so glad that this happened in such a crazy year. Even though you hate me when it comes to Sudoku [ and everything else that happens in Calc for some reason.. ] I’m still thankful for the memories that we shared this year. Let’s keep that strong for next year. : )
Roos Roos - Obviously, we weren’t in ANY classes this year, but you were still there when I needed you. Those few seconds when I saw you in the hallway, were often what I needed to brighten my day when I wasn’t feeling so peppy. We have to reconnect over the summer and have more parties and get togethers, because you have no idea how much I’ve missed you this year. Hopefully, we’ll have some classes together this year, and we won’t have to be so separated. Haha
Alexis! Like you said, I’ll see you over the summer, including the first four days right after graduation. xD After a year like this, it’s solidified that you have become my sister in addition to being my friend. I’m family now, so it’s going to be hard to get rid of me anyway. :3
KTG - You have no idea how happy I am to have gotten to know you this year. You gave me a new perspective on a lot of things that happen daily, and I love getting to meet up with you every morning. I can’t wait for us to work together again next year.
I’ve had so many memorable moments in Lang, but the most memorable ones always seem to include my classmates. I loved all of our class discussions, or listening to each other’s OPs, or realizing that we’ve just made it through another hurdle. I enjoyed working with everyone in some way, whether it be Lang related or not. To everyone, thanks for a memorable year. You’re more amazing than you think you are.
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ReplyDeleteI hate knowing when things are going to be over. Knowing when something is going to end allows a person to focus all their time trying to reach that end, that they forget what is happening now. Take school, for example, all of us have sat waiting for june 17th to come along and have become so lazy we have forgotten why we are here in the first place, (myself, and teachers included). With knowing things are over, comes the notion of saying goodbye.. or see you later. These are two big concepts I have not yet been able to master in my sixteen years of life. I guess I have not been able to master much and what better way to try than this last blog.
ReplyDeleteBeing the class president, I had known Bunje prior to entering 204 on August 31st. I sat in on a few classes and laughed at the juniors before me struggling to pass her class. Since I was a little kid I had always known that english and writing were my weak points, yet, just like any other class I figured lang would just be a simple speed up in my high school career. It was not until I sat in my pre-calc class sophomore year and watched a group of students, who were sleep deprived, struggle proofing essays and studying vocab.
The first day of school this year, I entered 204 as a student and not a goofy underclassman, and for the first time I had never felt so out of place. From the first assignment, I felt the need to try to impress Bunje more than myself. Since that assignment the pressure was on and i felt the need to change everything about my writing and understanding. I knew this year I wanted to learn something, and I could say I learned something knew everyday from Bunje, and the classmates around me. I have learned that when I speak, people do listen. A struggle I have always faced is expressing my opinion. This year, with “This I believe,” all of the class discussions and especially lit circles. I have experienced a wide variety of things, I have experienced failure for the first time, knowing that I can do better, and I have experienced fear. All of these things have changed my life during the year. My fear has changed to a mere memory of what I use to be, not what I have grown into today.
My favorite day in class was the day we did our declamations, that ones that we could pick, and my favorite lesson (which was constant throughout the year) was when we learned.. “People suck, and life isn’t fair” and “If you can prove it, you’re right.” I loved declamations because I loved watching everyone interpret and express their own individuality through a poem or passage, also because this is when I discovered I have a little twin. I had never realized that there was anyone out there who could change my life in such a short amount of time, until I met, and talked with Uroosa. (Thanks Bunje..) Uroosa and I have become really close the past couple of weeks and I am really glad she has become part of my life, because I know I would not be sane if it was not for her! My finest moment would have to be when I got a 9 out of 10 on a MC test. See, in the beginning of the year I barely could get one right and by the end I was not amazing, but I started to understand the passages and that made me feel like I was beginning to understand a deeper part of english instead of the literal, I was seeing the figurative meanings that I never have before.
ReplyDeleteThroughout junior year, I feel as though I have made major changes in my life. Personally and school related, my outlook on life has drastically changed for the better. I have managed to get through the toughest times with all of this AP work. I have been able to see and open myself up to more that the world has to offer, giving other people advice not just worrying about myself, and I have been able to see the truth that people have been hiding, one person in particular is myself.
My feelings toward senior year change almost daily. At some points I am extremely excited, and others I am scared to death that we will soon be saying our goodbyes and entering into the real world. My hopes for junior year is that I am prepared. I want to know I am ready and be confident when I am about to graduate. Ap Lang has taken we a step closer to growing a maturing far more than I had ever imagined it could. What I have learned during these past 180 days of school is far more than anything I have learned my whole life.
I would like to thank period 12 for always being a comforting audience. Each and everyone of you will go places, but make sure you remember all and most importantly I would like to thank Bunje. Without you, I could never have opened up and accomplished the things I did this year. What I wrote in the blog is a small tribute to the knowledge I have obtain from you this year. Thanks everyone, for making me feel so comfortable being myself in 204. I am going to miss AP Lang...
The end of this year…feels totally weird. I said this in my OP, but I really don’t feel like the conclusion of our year should be coming now. Call me crazy, but I feel as if we had a few more months to go. [ I would never wish that upon ourselves though. Sorry for even mentioning it guys. ]
ReplyDeleteMy recollection of this year starts with summer enrichment. It was the first time I had enrolled in what I thought were mini ‘prep’ classes, and I took them just so I could get a sneak peek into what I was in store for. It was at this time that I realized Bunje would seriously push me to succeed, Cervi and I would be best friends, Calc and I..*sigh*, and that Bio was sure to be interesting. What summer enrichment failed to inform me of, however, was how much time I would spend alone with myself, locked in a room, surrounded by textbooks and hours of homework ahead of me. I remember blowing off the comments of my peers above me. I thought, ‘There’s no way that teachers could impose that much work on students! The only reason that kid pulled an all-nighter yesterday was because they procrastinated’. A month into the school year though, I knew I was in for a punishment. And that’s how I thought about it. Whenever I was up late, I told myself that it was a punishment for not finishing something or for putting off something that I could have done earlier. I even got into the routine of rewarding myself when I finished something. I would reward myself with a 10-minute nap, or maybe even a bite of a sandwich. They all sound weird now, but it’s the only way I was able to push myself through the tedious amount of homework I was given.
I had to learn how to keep myself sane, but I also had to remember to give myself even a little bit of fun. I relied on Tony to regularly distract me from my work whenever I felt like it got too much. He let me complain to him. He let me yell at him when I was frustrated. He took my joyful moods, my irritated outbursts, my depressive states, and helped me transform them into something that I could work with. He was my sanity, the reasonable side of me that I sometimes forgot I possessed, and it helped me more than I could even describe. But aside from that, I also had to keep some type of humor in my life so that I wouldn’t sink into the jumbled, confused mess that was my mind. I began going to the Bolisay’s house. Every single Sunday. It became a routine, and eventually, I started going over there a few times a week. Those few hours that I spent there weekly were the closest to a social life I had all year. Jesus, it was insane, but I don’t think that I could have survived school if I didn’t have somewhere to go unwind before another hectic week.
Now though, when I look back at everything, I’m thankful for every single moment I spent upset, tired, angry, or on the verge of tears. Every moment I spent with myself taught me something new. I learned more from the people around me, and introduced new people into my life that taught me just as much as the people I’ve known for years. Just typing this makes me really sad that this year is actually over. I miss it already. I used to think that Freshman year was my favorite year, because everything was new and I was introduced to some of the most interesting people I have never met. But now, junior year has surpassed that. I’ve learned the most about myself here, the most about my peers. I’ve discovered new passions within myself, and I have a clearer outlook towards where I want to go with my future. I’m prepared to move on to my senior year, and I’m more than ready to enjoy with every single one of you.
Let’s make it happen.
Maryam: I've always been intrigued, although that has a bit of a creepy connotation, by your silence. I thought at first that you just didn't have much to say, but once I got closer to you, I developed a deeper understanding of the insight behind the silence. You've taught me a lot this year, and I don't know if you've realized that. You taught me a lot in Calculus. No, we never discussed math, but I listened to everything you said, and it changed the way I thought. You've got passion that I tend to mistake for naivety, and you express yourself through other means than words sometimes. I've even seen that crazy side of you where we can't stop laughing at shaking money in Chemistry, and who knows what in Calculus.
ReplyDeleteAll of what I’ve learned this year can be summed up with an amazing quote from none other than the wonderfully fantastic Dr.Seuss:
ReplyDelete“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!"
At the beginning of this year, the things that I interpreted as ‘troubles’ were the countless RRL’s, TSTD’s, papers, blog responses, vocab quizzes, and other assignments that we all knew were a necessary evil I would have to conquer as an AP Langer. After successfully completing these tasks however, I have realized that they are not my troubles, but rather they are just components of my huge, awesome, dangerous (in a good way) bat. These pieces are joined with other things that I’ve gained this year such as newly acquired wisdom on friendships, an appreciation (though not always accompanied by the application) of organization (tion, tion tion. Gosh, now I’m starting to sound like Dr.Seuss hahaha) and a renewed childlike passion for following my dreams.
I also believe that the hardships and troubles I have encountered this year have enabled me to see that I can overcome many things and I can accomplish tasks that I never thought I would be able to. It’s all of those ‘life lessons’ that have given me an amount of excitement for our SENIOR year and everything that comes along with it that cannot be measured in words.
As corny or stereotypical this might be to say….you have ALL helped me along the way. It may have been as big as being one of my best friends to merely the way you may have worded something in class that made me think about something deeper. I want to take this as an opportunity to say thank you, good luck, and I believe in every single one of you. <3
Taylor: I loved your blog, as usual. And I love that you learned "You can always turn back." I'm a firm believer in that lesson, and I'm sure you may have noticed, on the podium is a poster that says something like "No matter how far you turn down the wrong road, you can always turn around." I've admired that all year, as you have learned that as well. And I think that the most learning comes from everything as a whole, which is why neither of us could pinpoint a specific answer to the question of what influenced us most. Every aspect of the class came together and blended.
ReplyDeleteDeanna- I am going to miss reading all of your writing on the blog and throughout some of our lang classes. I hope we get the chance to be in the same classes next year like we have this year. I have made an unexpected friend but it is a friendship I will never forget. The way you can incorporate any vocab word into your writing is admirable and the way you express your ideas is something I have dreamed of for a long time. You are a very strong person, stronger than I will ever be!
ReplyDeleteJV- While reading your blog I was thinking about today when I was venting to you getting really mad and you were like kelsey, why are you mad? When you said this I was like wow, thank god he’s here to put me into place. Honestly, Jv you have made a huge impact on me this year. Everything you have said, every piece of advice, it was all real and totally worth it. Whether I wanted to hear it or not, I needed to and not many people can do that. You are very different from the rest of the world and I love that about you. Don’t worry about senior year. IT IS OURS! :)
Kristen- Your blog really touched me. I can’t help but thinking how next year is our last year together. We were close before, but this year we became closer than I had every imagined. I can see how difficult lang must have been for you because I know how much of a math person you are. I am glad to see that bunje and lang has made a similar impact on you that they have on me because I know the amount is one that is almost too much for words.
KTG:
ReplyDeleteLet me just say one thing first...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Okay...I think I'm good. SO...Freshmen year enrichment...and our awkward encounter at Build-A-Bear. XD Did you ever think we'd be as close as we are now? I didn't, but I can't even explain how glad I am that I was wrong. You're definitely not the only one who has benefited from our friendship.I seriously love everything about you. Your (eclectic, and sometimes smelly) personality, your sense of humor, your passion for what you love and the great loyalty,trustworthyness, and overall awesomeness you possess as a BEST friend. <3
Arg....I've always hated these “What've you learned at the end of the day?” kind of questions. I don't think thinking about what we've learned is as important as how we are and how we've matured after everything's said and done. And to be honest, I don't think Junior year (minus AP Lang, of course) really did all that much for me. I lost sleep, a lot of sleep, a ridiculous shitload of sleep, but that's about it. I didn't really lose or gain anything else, nothing that changed my basic philosophy on life nor anything else for that matter. Junior year just kinda happened. I'm happy to get it over with, to immerse myself in summer and senior year and all that pre-college stuff and to prepare for the next phase of my life. That's honestly about it.
ReplyDeleteWhat was that, like 50 words? Let me just go through everything to make sure I didn't forget anything.
“What will you leave with--what have you learned, what have you experienced?”
I've learned the importance of getting a good night's sleep and the bad experiences associated with not getting said sleep.
“What was your favorite day, your favorite lesson, your finest moment that you can recall?”
Everyday in every class since AP Exams, since I can sleep in most of them now.
“Are you different now then you were then? Better? Worse? Indifferent?”
I'm more tired.
“What did your junior year do for you?”
Tire me. Bore me—not like bore as in boring, more as in it felt like everyday when I was tired a spike was boring into my head.
“What are your hopes for your senior year?”
That I'll have more time to sleep.
“Is there anything you want to say to your friends?”
Friends? What friends!? Oh, these guys? Uh.....no, not really. But I guess if I had to, I say something like, “Good luck, follow your heart, I love you all.” That is, if I HAD to say something.
“Yourself?”
I already did.
JON:
ReplyDelete"In room 204 I can say I actually learned something"
As simple as that statement seems, I think it really illustrates just how instrumental this year and this class has been in helping all of us grow. There are only a few classrooms that I've been in throughout my years as a student that I can honestly say helped me LEARN something. Sure...I've been taught equations and vocabulary and all sorts of maxims in other classes...but in 204 I have learned about myself, my peers, and the world around me. I didn't just memorize literary terms and how to pass the AP tests. I learned how to take the things necessary to pass the AP test and apply them in life, which I think is the most important lesson.
Kelsey-
ReplyDeleteNyawww, your blog was really cute. And I had to relate to everything, even the spiel about Uroosa <333.
"My feelings toward senior year change almost daily. At some points I am extremely excited, and others I am scared to death that we will soon be saying our goodbyes and entering into the real world"
I feel the exact same way. But I believe we're fully equipt for senior year. Lang has made us ready to experience not only our last year in high school, but our years in college. I don't want to say "goodbye" because it's truly too difficult thinking of a lifestyle without the ones you've grown up with. I've practically known you since preschool (although i've never known that until two weeks ago). Anyways, it's a little scary thinking that we're graduated in a year from now, with the people we've grown to love. I, as well, will miss AP Lang.
I, honestly, believe I am a better human being for having passed through the revolving doors of 204 ( well-actually, the doors of 204 are not some much revolving for me seeing as I plan to live in it a great portion of next year). In 204, I found my voice, my strength to say no, and my inner “leader” that I never realized was being suffocated by silly fears. Perhaps that is the best lesson I learned in 204; to just be a better, more confident ME. 204, Bunje. Thank you. You do not know what you have done for me. I doubt I will ever find a place where I feel safer or more loved.
ReplyDeleteI must also thank 204 for all the wonderful, slightly disturbing, and always amusing memories that it has hosted over the last arduous year. Though nothing can truly pass the “Noggin”story, there are many other memories that I do and will always greatly cherish. The memory of the constant bickering between Hannah and Bunje can always bring a smile to my face. Alex N.’s always amusing questions and thirst for power, sex, and money is also high up there on my list of great memories of 204.
It is amazing to me, how quickly Period 9/10 became a family. Our constant bickering and jesting slowly evolved into something deeper. We have shared a great deal of secrets in 204 and, for some odd reason, those secrets only deepened our trust and mutual respect for one another. I have come to regard the people in my class with the highest respect, for they war brave enough to allow me, and the rest of 9/10, to sneak into their minds. To see their inner fears, their dark sides, and their aspirations. In the process, though, I think we also sneaked into each other’s hearts.
These people, this room, Bunje, all combined, have made a lasting impression on my life and my sense of identity. I think I have a better idea of who I am after taking AP Lang. I am not going to lie. The process was difficult and Death Month almost did kill me. But it was worth it in the end because I was gifted with wonderful friends, a new sense of respect as well as identity, and a second mom that I know will always be here for me. I am gifted with clues to finding my own personal treasure, my personal legacy, everyday in 204. I was gifted with Enzo, Eve, and (as much as it pains me to say it ) Denny. You can’t just buy these things on Pacific Avenue.
As for senior year I have two words: Bring it. I fear nothing no longer. My gold strings that were binding are being cut one by one. Soon theses said strings will not exist at all and this is a fact that I am confident of.
Maktub.
Alix-
ReplyDeleteI love you Dr. Seuss quote and how relatable it is to practically all of us! These hardships we've encountered this year were really, really, really difficult, but no doubt they have made ALL of us stronger and more ready for the future. We will take them with us along our journey! And I'm so happy to see your appreciation for everyone in Lang!
To everyone, after reading ALL of your blog posts, I can conclude that we are have matured tremendously. The majority of Langers admitted that they've matured, and that they've grown dramatically. This illustrates the enormous impact AP Lang has had on all of us. Just a point to take into consideration, Bunj. Thanks!
I am far more confident in my thinking than I was in the beginning of the year, and my thinking has led me to believe I know very little in a world with infinite things to learn. However I’m inspired and driven by this instead of discouraged. During the Alchemist discussions, I really felt like I was listening to everyone and could understand their perspective. I have to admit I have a history of waiting for my turn to speak. I’ve changed though. I’ve learned to hear people and see deeper into them. This has greatly effected my personnel life as well. I’ve felt much more deeply connected to my family lately, and I’m sure this is because I can see their view more clearly and appreciate it.
ReplyDeleteJunior year has stressed me out a lot, and forced me to control my passion. I feel like I’m content now where I used to be excited and happy. Maybe a few weeks of sleeping in and spending time outside is all I need. I’ve also lost a lot of friends or been distanced from them. Instead of mourning them, I’m trying to move on. I have a lot of people in my life (some of whom I was lucky enough to meet this year) who I love being around. It seems silly to mope about the way things were, when there’s limitless opportunities in front of me.
This summer I want to get the most I possibly can out of going to the summer precollege class at Brown University, while still enjoying it. I want to push the envelope and enjoy my freedom, without anything stupid. I need to get a lot of my college stuff done and not wait until the last week of to start my summer work (not that I’ve ever done that or anything). Next year I want to stick with my classes and be proud of all the things on my college application. I want to be madly in love and inspired my the school I’m going to. I want to enjoy time with my friends and try new things.
To everyone, I’m fully aware that I never would have made it this far without all of you. Little smiles of encouragement and wonderful examples of preference made a tremendous difference to me this year. There were a few (billions) of moments when I doubted why I wanted to push myself and whether I could succeed at all. You guys really helped me to survive them, and keep going. I love how diverse our Lang classes are. We all think differently, because I believe we are all brave enough to think for ourselves. I look forward to another year with all of you.
Jessie:
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! It means so much to hear that I had an impact on you this year! You definitely inspired me to work my hardest this year. Your writing always offered a unique perspective and was so well written! I was so interested by all your OPs, and everything you've shared with the class in fact!
Kyle S:
ReplyDeleteWell, that's definitely a very you-ish way to end the year. You really don't think you got anything else out of this year, though? That surprises me a little (although not as much as it probably should). If nothing else, I think you're at least a little more outspoken than you were in the beginning of the year. Whether or not that was a side effect of the sleep deprivation or not, I don't know.
JV:
ReplyDelete“Dear Me,
Kick ass next year bitch. Kick ass”
XD, you never seem to fail to crack me up. I like this motivation, heck I’m all for it! You’ll be a beast next year, I know it! And hopefully I won’t get to see you so you won’t get to scream out POOHA out in the hallways, just kidding. I’ll be missing out knowing one of the most craziest people I’ve never met Senior year. And yeah speaking of Senior year, I really hope they don’t cut a lot out of the school. I really really really want to be in advanced Dance… though people keep saying there is no hope for that. Let’s just pray and hope everything turns out for the best.
Maryam:
Aww, Maryam (with an accent). I can kind of sense the change blogs have presented to you. Every time I read yours, you always surprise me and have such a wise philosophy and deeper understandings that I just wanted to crumple a paper and throw at it you and say stop being so DEEP, cause you know how I’m like the total opposite. Haha, I’m only kidding. But you have been one of the ones I’ve learned from the most. I hope we have atleast few of the same classes together… I love you mahh Bffl :D
Manar:
Girl, without you my second half of the year would’ve been so boring! I’m so glad I stuck through Lang, not only cause I learned more but also the fact I met you. You’ve been a terrific friend, and you’ve done so well keeping up with this class. I’m proud of you! I’ll definitely miss having lunch with you and hearing all about your crazy talks! O and your welcome :] Thanks for the shout out.
"You're late."
ReplyDelete"I know, I'm sorry, I was talking to Mr. Sera."
"I don't care. Sit down. Don't come late to my class again."
That first day was scary. I'm not gonna lie about that. But the intimidation wore off, and instead of a super mean looking teacher there now stands a caring mentor. Mentor may not even be the right word. Throughout this year, we have all changed, and we have all effected each other in some way or another. Thinking back, I've gone through more changes than I realized. I learned so much -- and I'm not just talking about lit terms people. I found out who I am, and who some of you are. I experienced changes, as well as many entertaining moments, awkward moments, and conufsing moments. And I couldn't be happier to have experienced them all.
I learned not to procrastinate. Yeah, I know, sounds tacky. But oh so true! It really kicked my ass this year. So i kicked it back ;). I learned that I have more in me than I thought possible, in both smarts and character. I learned to speak up, to stay strong, and to believe in what is in my heart. And I learned it all from lang.
My favorite days were the days we got into circles or just the days that we all talked. Sure, I enjoy learning, but sometimes I can learn a lot more by observing those around me, listening, and sharing some words of my own. It felt like we all knew each other and could just be ourselves. That's always the best.
I think I have becoming wiser since then. More philosophical, deep; observant and tactful. I think a lotttt more now, and I care more about things than I used to. I'm not as apathetic, which is a good thing. I feel ready for not just senior year or college, but for life. This is the only class that ever backed up the trite saying "high school prepares you for teh real world." And the only reason it has is because of all the life lessons, philosophies, and everything in general that we have talked about. That is, overall, what I enjoyed this year. Actually learning very useful information.
Senior year, to me, should be a challenging but somewhat relaxing year. It's going to be important for me to do better at crew, so that I can get some good scholarships, and in order for that to happen I need to not worry and stress myself over classes. Oh and I plan on continuing my almost daily visits to Mrs. Rock and Bunje. Those should be pretty good too :).
If I had one thing to say to everyone in the classes, and to Bunje, it would be thanks for the memories. But I'd also add, of course, let's make more, and make them the best ever. Cause this isn't an end, it's just the beginning.
LUCAS:
ReplyDeleteThe whole time I read your blog your voice was reading it in my head. There was even the occasional sigh and that look you give when you're sorta embarrassed at what someone said to you. (like Bunje calling you 'cute' hahaha)
But besides that I wanted to say that I think you are understating the changes and improvements you've made this year.
In all honestly, at the beginning of the year, I really didn't like you all that much. I thought that you thought you were 'too good' to contribute in class discussions and that you held yourself above everyone else. But as the year went on and we all started to reveal pieces of our true selves to our class, my opinion has made a total 360.
You're not pretentious at all. You're cautious and as unsure about all of us as I was about you. ALSO, You're NOT boring. YOU HAVE A PERSONALITY. In fact, I think you're pretty awesome. I know what I (or anyone for that matter) say can not make you see how awesome you are, but I hope that I can help steer you in that direction!
To Kelsey:
ReplyDeleteI am so happy that I got to know you. Our seven o'clock ( or what used to be our seven o'clock chats) are the best part of my day. It is sacred to me. Honestly, I love you girl and I am happy that this sucky year brought us together. A blessing in a disguise, I guess. I forgot to thank Bunje for that. Wow-I owe her a lot.
This has been the worst year of my life. I mean I was at a point where I thought things were bad, but I had NO CLUE. Not only did I have the single most important facet of my life ripped away from me, now dance is being torn away like a bandaid from the wound left by my riding, the woman who was my mother has been replaced by some alcoholic nut job and I have given up on her ever returning, I’ve been disowned by my father, and the list goes on.
ReplyDeleteThrough all this (for lack of a better word) shit, I came to 204 period 9/10. It didn’t make my pain go away, it didn’t erase the negatives…hell it added more stress to be honest, but it gave me something I never had before, a place to learn. I thought things I never thought before, talked about topics I didn’t even realize COULD be talked about. I exercised my mind and my identity every day and I loved it. I could literally visualize the knowledge I was garnering after each lesson; I put together all the components of rhetoric in my mind and watched as they came together to produce some of the best essays I’ve ever written, the deepest theories I ever contemplated. My world lost all barriers in 204 and I searched the darkest, deepest, fathest reaches of myself.
Now as I sit on my sofa listening to my mom blame me for God only knows what and my dad complain about my inconveniences I will admit I’m beginning to cry, but its not because of them. It never will be. I’m finally facing the truth that this year is ending and that this class has meant so much more to me than I ever realized until now. Man the things we take for granted. I’m so scared that I’ll forget what I learned, not about school, but about life, the world, myself. I don’t get to talk to people the way I talk in Lang, who else will contemplate the existence of time or the true meaning of love with me?!?!?!?!
I’m not going to lie and say that I’ve gotten so close to all of you, because I haven’t. I don’t talk to many of you outside of 204 but I’ll still miss our class being together. Each of you brings something so unique to the table and I’ll never forget the feeling of coming together and focusing on one topic and just….thinking. I’m so proud of all of you; 9/10, 11, and 12. I may not have seen the progress from students in other classes, but in 9/10...damn! I’m blown away at how far all of you have come and I’m sure the results are similar in the other periods.
Next year, well, I can’t live in the future. Too much is undecided for me right now and I’m too afraid of where my life is heading to contemplate the next month let alone the entirety of senior year, but I hope its good. I hope its fantastic and kickass and absolutely wonderful for all of us. I hope we all get where we want to go with as little adversity as possible. I hope we all remember who we are and what we stand for and just have fun!
Thanks guys so much for giving me an experience I’ll never be able to duplicate. Bunje I want to thank you especially for everything, for this class, your dedication, your lessons, your threats =]. It worked.
My biggest regret = Not working hard enough
My favorite moment(s) = Every epiphany I had/have. (occurring daily now)
Time to write my OP!! I’ll see everyone tomorrow.
And thanks again for giving me the greatest moments of my life.
Alix L:
ReplyDelete“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!"
I like that you quoted my man Theodore. My dad loved Dr. Seuss and used me as an excuse to buy books, so he enteered me in this book club where I was sent two Dr. Seuss books a year. I remember when "I Had Trouble in Getting to Solla Solew" came in the big white envelope and my dad and I sat on the couch to read it. The line "Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me," really stuck out, even at a young age, and I'm glad it did because I tried to keep that mentality throughout the year. Eventually, I felt all Deanna-like and just took out each assignment like a superhero.
Gwen:
ReplyDeleteI remember always going on webcam to distract ourselves. One time we were talking about the rewards we would give ourselves and we discovered that we used the same things for motivation! Ice cream and Nutella! Anyway, I agree, even though it was so hard to get through I'm thankful for all the work this year. I learned from everything single thing I did.
To Gwen:
ReplyDeleteI know that we have not had classes together, but you can always brighten my day. We are going to do all the things on our "TO DO LIST" this summer. No excuses. Ripley's Reunion time is near!!
Lucas:
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you became more comfortable with yourself this year. I can honestly count you as one of my best guy friends, mainly because of the fact that we talk to each other a lot now. You're funny, intelligent, and not all that awkward, and I wouldn't have discovered that had you not opened up.
Alix L:
ReplyDeleteI said the same thing! Everyone helped me through this year, and I have everyone to thank. We were alway here for each other when it started to get really hard, and now all of us are closer. I think this year laid the perfect foundation for an amazing senior year with each other.
Brittany O: "This year gave me a sense of determination that has been there all along but never really surfaced before because nothing had ever pushed me so much. I wanted to give up so bad this year."
ReplyDeleteI think this is the first year that I actually feel the success of my efforts. Taking that AP test and feeling like it was the simplest thing...that was the best feeling in the world. I was so prepared and it was a sign that, even though I felt like a failure all year, I was actually kicking some ass! I'm glad you didn't give up and I'm proud of you for making it to the end. Girl we've had some times together and just as a slightly irrelevant side note I love you and you rock. =]
To Chrissy:
ReplyDeleteMost of the time we are disagreeing on a topic but other times we are humming your "theme song" or singing random Selena. I love that about us. I am really happy that I finally got to know you, not only as Brynne's best friend, but as my close friend as well. Here's to more singing in the car!
I can’t really fathom that soon I will be a senior, it felt like only yesterday that I was walking into the doors of Oakcrest as a freshman. Now that I have gone through my junior year, I can take a step back and really appreciate what I have learned in each of my classes. My time in room 204 has been an onerous unpredictable roller coaster, complete with its ups and downs, twists and turns, and stomach-in-your-throat feeling that was encountered through the year. Yes AP language was defiantly the class with the highest expectations and biggest workload but after it is all said and done, I am thankful I was pushed to my limit—which actually has helped me to improve my maximum ability. I am leaving 204 with a new outlook on English, not only has my ability to write essays been improved, but the whole aspect of the English language has been unveiled to me in a way I never saw before. (I also improved greatly on the critical reading on the SAT by learning how to analyze passages) The part that I enjoyed most this year (besides the parties) was the book discussions, as well as the books that we were assigned to read. Both books were very good, and the discussion about realizing metaphors and interpreting text really made the book come alive.
ReplyDeleteNow that it is the end of the year, I can really see that the person I was walking into 204 is leaps and bounds different than the person that will be walking out. This class alone has taught me a lot, and with its many life lessons—including vowing never to procrastinate again—I have learned enough to take that leap into my senior year. The realization of college has kicked in, and with the mark of the end of my junior year I hope I can transition into my semi-adulthood with pride that I have done well this far in my high school career. I hope to continue to do well in my classes and bring the things I have learned in AP Lang into my next AP senior courses. I want to end this last blog by thanking everyone in 12th period class in the great 204, for I have felt that through discussion, occasional papers, and getting to know people better has made the year an overall better experience. I would also like to thank Ms. Bunje for showing me the path to the art of language, for I have learned so much this year and have been brought to a higher level of understanding. I will try to leave junior year on a good note, and try to enjoy at least some of the summer without letting summer work get in the way. Senior year, here I come.
Stephen,
ReplyDeleteI haven't had Nutella and Ice cream all year! :[
I almost forgot about how much I loved that!
Sarah: I love your blog. You wrote what I wanted to say in mine but so much better. I wish you were in my class this year, we always had so much fun together in chem last year! I'll be sure to bring my camera to school soon, if you bring your thinking face ;)
ReplyDeleteStephanie: Your blog was inspiring to me. It really made me realize how great lang was in every way, to everyone else and not just me. Stay strong :)
Kyle: Ha yours was funny. I feel the same way about the sleep thing for sure. But now its about to be summer, and we can all finalyl catch up on that!
Lauren Day said...
ReplyDeleteI can sum up what I’ve learned junior year in its entirety with the following quote: Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end. Throughout the course of the year, I’ve hit rock bottom but touched the sky, jumped into rough waters but learned to swim, and did away with the “old” Lauren but brought to life a new, vivacious one. If I’ve learned anything this year I’ve learned about myself, which is what I set out to do in the first place. On our stars we hung during the first week of school, my two goals were to win a state championship and learn more about myself. Even though the state title didn’t work out, I’m satisfied knowing that I completed at least one of my goals.
As for experiences, I feel like I’ve been through it all. From smiles to tears and every emotion in between, this year has definitely been a taxing one; I honestly do not know how I made it through. With all of the pressures I put on myself in school and swimming, it’s a wonder I haven’t self-destructed. However, I wouldn’t give any of these experiences for all the riches in world. I’ve learned from each experience, and in turn they’ve changed the way I view myself, the people around me, and, as vague as it sounds, humanity as a whole.
Everyday, I looked forward to Lang class. Maybe not during death month, but 12th period was a blessing every other month of the year. Lang is the only class where I learned more about life than about academics, but was the most effective over all. In Lang, everyone can be him or herself. When I walk through the door of Room 204, a positive, creative energy smacks me in the face, and throughout class I can’t get rid of it. Whenever I’m in 204 the most profound concepts are understandable and I feel like I can conquer the world! Even though every day doing Lang work is a fabulous day, I would have to say that winning the “I Have, Who Has” contest was definitely the best. (sorry 9/10 and 11 :-P)
The girl that walked through the doors of Oakcrest High School on August 31, 2009 would never have recognized the girl that will be walking out on June 17, 2010. I’m a changed person! After a long year of learning, not only academic-related things, I’m more insightful, accepting, and open-minded, but most importantly happier. During the last few weeks of summer, I was more nervous than ever to start “the most important year of high school.” I was tired and miserable all of the time and I resented setting myself up to “succeed” because it was only causing me anxiety. On several occasions, I planned on dropping down to all CP classes because I wasn’t sure if a high class rank and fast times were worth giving up my social life. However, I’m glad that I stuck it out and proved to myself that I can handle anything.
Junior year made me grow up. It was a kick in the butt reminding me how fast my high school years were flying by, and a huge, flashing sign reminding me to make the most of them. More importantly, junior year was a bridge between childhood and adulthood. When I entered on the last day of August, I was a child; immature, inexperienced, and afraid. However, I will leave a confident, intelligent, and diva-licious young woman. If I had to choose the most significant lesson I’ve learned from junior year, it is to always believe in myself, because I can do anything that I put my mind to. The second most important lesson I’ve learned is that nice guys finish last, and I plan to use all of the advice I’ve acquired for a fresh start and a fabulous senior year.
Lauren Day said.. (cont'd)
ReplyDeleteIn my final year of high school (I can’t believe I’m saying this) I hope to continue to learn more about myself and HAVE FUN! After three long years of homework, studying, and all-nighters, I am looking forward to a lighter course load and a ten o’clock bedtime. I cannot wait to sign a letter of intent to swim in college, and dance (yes, Kristen, dance!) at both homecoming and prom. I can’t wait to test my limits and take chances where the outcome isn’t always in my favor. After all, if you’re not living on the edge, you’re taking up too much space.
To all of the AP Langers: THANK YOU! Whether you know it or not, each and every one of you has helped me this year. It could have been as simple s smiling in the hallway or as complex as helping me figure out my life, (pro/con list!?) but without the help of every AP Langer I would not have survived, or be the person I am today.
Bunje: THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! Thank you for genuinely listening whenever I needed to talk, thank you for letting me cry to you when I reached my breaking point, thank you for giving the best advice when a problem arose, I will be forever grateful. I know this year has been extremely difficult for you, and I’m glad that us Langers have still remained a priority in your life through all of the trouble. Lastly, thank you for assigning “The Alchemist.” I absolutely love it and will probably read it five more times over the summer because I love it so much, and because I want to understand every last word of what Paulo Coelho has written. You’ve changed the way I look at life and have truly been an inspiration. Thanks
Everything is finally okay, so I guess it’s the end. However, the end doesn’t always have a negative denotation because without an end, there can never be a beginning. So, even though junior year is over, the summer before senior year is beginning and, with this in mind, I could not be happier!
Lucas: "I also developed a personality (who would’ve thought?). Basically, I’m a lot less boring now than I was at the beginning of the year, so I started talking to a lot of people that I had never really paid attention to before. I found people that I fit in with (sort of), so I’m happier now than I was before."
ReplyDeleteLucas, you didn't develop those things. They didn't suddenly come about. You've always had a personality, you've always been interesting, and you've always had friends, you just needed to open your eyes to it. Not to say I told you so but.....I told you so =P. I'm really happy that Lang has done so much for you though. You needed this class, we all did, and we're all much better for it. I hope youmove on from here with this new sense of your self and that it continues and grows and improves and just stays positive.
P.S. I told you love will come in college just calm down eager beaver! lol
T-Palm:
ReplyDeleteDon't cry! It's only a "see you later!" But seriously, I love that you highlighted the fact that "things tend to work out for the best." I learned that this year, too, but mostly through soccer. I think it's Deanna who said around Thanksgiving that she's thankful for all the little things that have happened to make her life what it is now.
Sometimes, I try to trace the events leading up to a current aspect of my life. Almost always, one of the catalysts that sprung my life to where it is now is negative. For instance, when I sprained my ankle before the second-biggest college showcase in the country, I was down and out. However, I recently was told by three different college coaches that the strength with which I recovered from that injury is a huge testament to my resilience and work ethic. At one point, I was upset because I dropped all of the cards I was holding, but then I realized they fell in my favor.
That was unnecessarilly long, so I'm sorry, but this is my last comment on the last AP Lang blog ever, so I don't want to let go. I'm allowed to drag it out for effect.
Brynne:
ReplyDeleteI cant say anything more than I love you. That sums up everything. That and our two hours phone conversations of course. You are always there for me through the ups and the downs.
To Hannah:
ReplyDeleteIn the immortal words of Lizzie McGuire, "You rock.Don't ever change. "
Kyle:
ReplyDeleteI was just wondering, do you think that Junior year made you lose any sleep?
Alex V:
ReplyDeleteYou are so uniquely yourself. Your passion for writing, riding, dancing, and life in general never ceases to amaze me. When I am around you,I automatically feel energetic and happy. You care this amazing and beautiful aura with you. So thank you for that.
To KTG:
ReplyDeleteYou are an artiste inside an out. Not only do you have an artist's hands but you also have his soul, heart, and brains. I always appreciate your sense of humor and your sensitivity. You are an essential part of 9/10.
I learned so much about myself this year, and that has to be why I love this class so much. I took nothing but life lessons from Costal, and I’ll forever love him for that; the same is true for Bunje and every one of my classmates this year. Though APs are never easy, I never once found myself regretting signing up for this course because of my experiences. I found things out the hard way, I found out not everyone is fond of Killa Krispa, I found myself able to not give a shit what people think because there are two rules of life – people suck and life isn’t fair.
ReplyDeleteMy favorite moment was recently, actually. It was when I knew I accomplished my star. I kind of want to do that more often; write goals on stars, cover them up and hang them from my ceiling (or in the corner of 204). I honestly thought I’d forget what I wrote and I’d fail at one more thing this year, but I didn’t. It took 10 months, but I did it!
I think I’m so different now, but most definitely for better. I care more about what I do, I think more when I do something, I stand up more for what I believe in (and I’m able to have a discussion with nice SAT vocab rather than ranting about how mad I am and punching my fists) and so many other things. To be honest, I’m lovin’ who I’ve become! I really think that the steps I’ve taken in this class to move on in my life are helping me get closer to the person that I’ve always wanted to be. And for that, I’m forever thankful for room 204 and everyone in it.
My junior year definitely showed me what I do and do not like. It showed me my potential and what I can flat out NOT do (calculus…). This year has brought me to the exact place I need to be with myself and my friends before our senior year. I’m comfortable, for now, with who I am and how
I’ve gotten here. I’ve been able to be, sorry Deanna, content with my life. Sure, it has its ups and downs, mostly downs, but I know that it’s not the end just yet. Senior year, I hope to learn even more about myself. I hope to be able to find what exactly I’m wonderful at and I want to be put in the spot to pursue my dreams. I hope the first four months of senior year lead me right to California. If not, I hope the next six months after that I don’t cry too much.
It’s not until we lose everything that we’re free to do anything (oh, Fightclub). I’m losing my days in 204 but I’m not ending anything just yet. I’m free to do anything now, and damn right I’m going to. I’m no longer afraid of what may come my way, and this is all thanks to Bunje and my fellow langers. I’m free, I’m finally free.
I reread my very first blog and from the first sentence, thought, "What kind of freak wrote this?!" But then I realized it was a side of me that I liked. That was before the war of junior year, when everyone was hyped and preparing to tackle all the troubles that came this year. And after going through this war, I right now feel battle-worn. Junior year has exhausted me mentally and physically that even the tiny end of the year tasks feel a bit too arduous for me. But it has all been worth it. I enjoy this "lame-duck" period but as soon as the summer starts I will be that very enthusiastic person again preparing for the final war of senior year. I can’t wait for senior year!
ReplyDeleteNow during my junior year, I began with very high expectations, but I knew that I was not perfect and would feel let down at times. This year, in a few short moments, I've disappointed more people than I could have ever known. I've been knocked down so many times that I felt like I couldn't go on. I've hit a point of that point of exhaustion when I've thought that 5 minute nap in-between class is the best feeling ever. But, it's weird...I can't decide whether this was the worst year or the best. I've seen possibly for the first time, moments when people genuinely cared about me. I've my own personal beauty in ways I never thought possible. I've learn the things I need to work on, like faith. I've seen that nothing can be done correctly without the faith that it will succeed. I've seen the endless length of things that I can accomplish as long as I work at it. I've learned that nothing can just be handed to you. I've learned from blogs that there is more than meets the eye with everybody and I now see that nobody is truly alone in their problems. I've learned that things that bring immediate comfort did not last and the things that bring small inconveniences will burst into greatness. I do not know whether I should cry tears of sadness or joy, but right now, I am choosing joy because I honestly believe that a difficult junior year will result in an amazing senior year.
In the all the times in AP Lang, I think my finest moment of the entire year was those few minutes I presented my first declamation. I was so anxious and worried.--not about forgetting my poem (because I knew it so well I could practically recite it backwards), but of seeming nervous. Seeming too quiet...seeming like the person people perceive me as and the person I hate to come off as. But something happened the brief moment before I arouse from my seat. All the nervousness washed away and Shirley, the future Shirley, made an appearance. And after that rush of happiness and excitement, Whoah! is all I can say. She was finally coming out, ever so slowly. This is the person I want to be. Sometime I think it’s luck or chance whether or not Shirley will be there. I just never know when I will be amazing! But reading "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways." was the omen that told me, one day, she'll be here for good.
So with that...To the Shirley of today, don’t forget your strength because it will never leave you. Love, Shirley of the future.
To everyone else in AP Lang, you are all freakin' amazing!!! And I know that each and everyone of you will live very fulfilling lives! I cannot put to words how you’ve all helped me. Thank you! Love, Shirley.
...I love these blogs! I wish they never had to end! I truly learned a lot about myself just from answering questions I usually avoid. If only we could continue blogs into the summer...we all could really benefit from some 'optional' summer blogs! But I know some things just have to end. We must move “onward and upward!”
Lauren - Ah to your quote! I just typed out this whole mushy comment for you, but I'll end up Facebook commenting it to you. Can I just say I better be there when you get signed and then DANCE?! Okay, good. Well, I have to include the fact that you made my junior year so much better in here. Part of that mushy mess I just composed is telling you how much I love you, inside and out. I always saw you as a beautiful girl, absolutely perfect, and now I see how amazing of a person you are! I can't wait to see what this summer has in store for the both of us. Oh, want some celery?
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ReplyDeleteThank you for always being there. You are, as a wise woman told me, a "selfless one of a kind masterpiece". You mean a lot to me, Paola and I hope that next year we will be in more classes together so I can get my daily dose of Dec..
To Alex N. :
ReplyDeleteCan i just say "Thanks for the memories"?You are so entertaining and so brilliantly intelligent. Any guy would be lucky to have you ( even though you are a little power and sex crazy).
Dear Junior year,
ReplyDeleteGoodbye and Good riddance junior year, the worst, most painstaking year which high schools are able to provide. Goodbye and Good riddance to nights full of homework and studying, lacking in snoozing and dreams. Goodbye and Good riddance to a year that has changed everything I had thought to be true...
Hate is such a strong word, however it is completely appropriate in describing my feelings for you, oh junior year. However, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and with that I am able to say that I am leaving you with a new understanding of not only English composition and language, but life. I have been able to define my beliefs, sharpen my opinions, and absorb abstract ideas on living. You have brought me many favorite lessons, days, and moments. One of these would have to be our blog and class discussion on the overly-used word “nice.” That has stuck, glued to my mind, as well as our most recent readings and discussions from the Alchemist have.
I’ve changed incredibly this year. You, junior year, have humbled me. You have made me realize who I really am, not who I try to be. You have granted me wisdom, a new outlook upon others. You have taught me more than I think I realize… if it wasn’t for you, this year, I don’t know who I would be next year. Being a person with a mindset in the future, I am never was content with the present. This year, however, has taught me to appreciate more, love the present and understand that it is only our present that can make a difference for the future. And so, the brighter the present, the brighter the future!
When I leave you for the more charming Senior year, I hope to get a chance to use all that I’ve learned this year. To rise in my self-actualization. Next year, I hope to actually have some fun, change up my priorities, and figure out what my personal legend is.
In this letter to you, I would like to thank you for the friends you have given me . Every single AP Langer has taught me something this year. Love is just as strong as the word hate, and I love all of you. We are such a beautiful family. Yes, by beautiful I mean incredibly good-looking, because AP Langers definitely are. However, I also mean beautiful in the most pure sense. Every single AP Langer brings an incredible new beliefs and passions in which are entrusted to one another. That my friend, is beauty in its purest sense.
I would like to make sure, that you understand its over between us, junior year. Goodbye and good riddance to the pain, stress, and the superfluous encompassed in between. We had a good run, but I’ve moved on. I’m taking all my memories, friends, and even Ms. Bunje with me! Farewell Junior year, HELLOOOOO SENIORRRR YEAR! Arrivederci amici, vi voulio tanto bene <3
With Love,
Paola
Alexis—
ReplyDeleteWow! You are the first person to ever tell me that I’ve conquered a lot this year! I never thought I did, but thank you so much! That meant more than I could say. And also, “I just hope that change will make me happy.” Change is positive thing in a person’s life so embrace it! Even though you won’t have Steven or your sister, see next year as a way to just be yourself. I know that it was a great blessing for me to only go through one year in the same school as my sister.
Dylan—
I don’t know if I ever told you this, but every time I read your blogs, I hear your voice reading aloud because you always have such a distinct voice in your writing. I have always enjoyed reading your blogs and listening to what you have to say.
Kristie—
I’m glad you accomplished whatever you wrote on your star! I wrote so many that I can only remember a few but I did accomplished those few I remembered. And I actually make five stars the same way we did in class and hung them in my basement. It’s right near my computer so it reminds me to always work hard on whatever homework I’m doing at the moment. I think in college I’m going to have a few stars hanging around, too. I just loved the whole idea.
Kaitlin - I feel the same way about Lang! I mean sure it was hard, but in any other course I would not have learned this much about myself as I did in Lang. Change scares me, but from this class I've been able to accept it more. Sure, I'm upset that we won't be together for much longer, but I'm never going to leave these memories behind. Let's face it, we're all going to hide in 204 next year when our English classes come around and they're NOTHING like this. By the way, I also typed a mushy comment to you and it just says how much I love you and everything you've done for me, which I really do. You're an amazing person, and I can't wait to make you laugh EXTREMELY hard this summer. I love you!
ReplyDeleteKelsey C- "I lost sleep, a lot of sleep, a ridiculous shitload of sleep..."
ReplyDeleteHonorary Paki, I feel you. I slept so little this entire year that I jeapordized my own health. I was brain dead half of the days and I was always miserable and in pain. I guess you know how much I value sleep now and every moment I have I sleep because it's one of the best parts of my days.
Kristen D- I'm going to miss having you in pretty much all of my classes. Our hilarious moments in calculus and chemistry are ones I will never forget because I laughed so hard I cried (literally) and well... that's kind of rare for me. No matter what certain people in our italian class think, I believe...no I know you're brilliant. You think about aspects of life in ways I don't, and you have such a strong and admirable passion for music and helping people. Whenever I'd talk to you, I couls feel that you were really listening to everything I was saying and sometimes, I even told you things I normally wouldn't share with that many people. I hope you're in some of my classes next year so I can laugh at your creepy easter bunny face! :)
Pooja ( POOHA!)- Girl, I can never forget our sleepless nights that we'd stay up talking to each other and helping each other. If you weren't there to keep me sane, I don't think I would have made it without breaking down. No matter how may times I told you that your writing was not bad and that you were just over thinking thins, you wouldn't listen and I'd have to threaten you into believing me, haha. You were always there for me and I loved how we used each other as alarm clocks during our all nighters... Man, there are so many memories with you that I've had, and you know them all... that is if you remember since you have Alzhiemers! :P Anyways, I'll be keeping in touch with you over the summer and telling you about all of my adventures in Pakistan... ;)
Kristen - I absolutely love the beginning of your comment, beautifully written! Besides that, I love the dept of your comment. Again, I caught myself nodding in agreement with every sentence I read. Lang has taught me some of those unteachable lessons, get it? Well, Lang brought me to those paths and pushed me onto them - sometimes I tripped and other times I ran right through. Whatever the case, Lang has given me those memories and thoughts that are unforgettable. Just like you, which I have to tell you how much I love you right now! I'm so happy at how close we've gotten this year and I cannot wait to see more of you this summer. Want to watch the sunrise June 20? Works for me. Pick a date, let's go!
ReplyDeleteStephanie
ReplyDeleteIt's great that you feel like you've matured so much this year. Life is full of struggles and the lessons you learned in your struggles this year will certainly make future ones a lot more bearable.
Brynne:
It's great that you were able to express yourself throughout all of AP Lang this year and come out a better person because of it. And to respond to your last few sentences, I also think that we've learned a lot more than we may've thought this year.
Kaitlin
“I started this year thinking that it was going to be the worst year of my life. All I heard sophomore year was people complaining about the workload for AP Lang and I told myself that I would never do that to myself. Well what do you know? I took it. For probably more than half of the year, I honestly constantly questioned myself on my reasoning for taking such a class....Why would anyone put themselves through such torture voluntarily?”
You took the words right out of my mouth. I couldn't agree with you more. This year sucked up until about...well...now, and I can't believe I put myself through all of this torture as well.
Lucas
ReplyDeleteI remember when you didn’t’ talk at all. Last year, I knew nothing of you, other than that fact that you won a spelling bee. This year though, we became friends—pretty good friends to be exact. This year has definitely opened you, and that’s a good thing. Thought his year has taught both of us a lot, no single year can make us perfect. None of us are perfect, but then again, we aren’t meant to be.
Kaitlin
Ha. You know what else Lang taught us? “It’s okay to skip practice,” and “pulling Hares.” But anyway, you’re definitely right. Lang was more than just English. Lang was about life and ourselves. Though learning about ourselves was painful, Lang helped us progress from caterpillars to cocoons to butterflies (Ew. How gay…).
Bella
“I am surrounded by artists, dreamers, inventors and geniuses.” AMEN! It’s funny how even our last blog doesn’t fail to teach me about a friend. I never knew you smoked, and to overcome that is wonderful—I’d just wish my dad would quit. Like you said, we really are surrounded by leaders. Our classmates really can do anything. That includes you Bella. Fulfill your Personal Legend and attend UTexas!
I walked into AP Lang thinking that it would be like any other AP class—even though the only AP class I had in my bag was Government. I knew it would be challenging, but I didn’t know it would be the hardest class in the entire world—requiring the most effort and thought. As the year went on, I bombed every test and my first report card (79) reflected my test scores. I was discouraged. Friends around me abandoned the class. But I thought to myself, “I will not tire, I will not falter, and I will not fail.” I trudged through the class; dropping out was not an option. Slowly but surely, I improved. I got better. By the second marking period, I improved a whole point! 80! It was around that time that I realized the number on my report card did not represent my knowledge of AP Lang. Eighty was just a number. My knowledge of AP Lang could not be measured in numbers. By the end of the year I finally knew how to score a five on the AP Exam, even though I didn’t finish ten questions.
ReplyDeleteThough, I learned more than the art rhetoric. I learned about my friends and about myself—blogs, papers, OPs, desk circles. I have powerful friends who have climbed over even the tallest walls. I am a slow thinker—which is why I didn’t finish ten questions on the exam but an inquisitive one. I want to say that the Lang workload taught me how to manage my time, but I would be lying—currently it is 9:45 PM. For some reason, I can’t help but procrastinate—a lesson about myself that I learned from Lang.
Junior year was a year of growth. I came; I saw; I conquered. Many of us will take our Senior year easy, but I won’t. (Not to say that there’s anything wrong with an easy Senior year.) I will continue to push my limits. Summer is almost here, and that means Senior year is almost here. That means I’ll see you all again. I’ll see everyone again next year. But we don’t have to go that far, because, well, we’ll see each other tomorrow. That being the case, it’s not “Goodbye” or “See you later.”
“Hasta mañana!”
Uroosa: You're amazing, without a doubt you deserve to have your cake and eat it to! I'm so lucky to have you in my life; you're a true friend. I will always be here for you.
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Manar: I'm so happy we met this year. You seemed to love my creeper qualities and gangster ways, just as much as I love your badassness. I'm here for you and I know that our friendship will continue "Forever" (yeaa i wrote that song too ;) )
Bunje: You're so incredible. You have such a beautiful gentle nature about you, that makes me feel open to learn from you. And I did learn... alot. Thank you. I love you as a mother, and I trust you as if you were my own mother. Taking this class, and having you as my teacher is one of the best things I did this year.
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that says it all.
Paola:
ReplyDeleteYou are definitely going to be a famous writer one of these days. I just know it in my gut.
Taylor: I'm glad you got so much out of this year, and I hope to see you in my other classes next year.
ReplyDeleteAlex V: I'm sure that you have a great future ahead of you, and that you are only being tried and tested now. Everything will be alright - I'm here for you too.
ReplyDeleteI know for sure now, that AP Lang is the real A-Team of Oakcrest. You're all awesome, so go out there and keep being awesome :D By the way, sorry period 9/10, I missed our awesome end of the year finale. x.x
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